✯Sincerely, Me✯
☯LivingWithMyself☯
Better To Be Alone
Dear Reader,
Being alone is better than being used, or gas lit.. or being stuck in a toxic relationship.
What got to me the most about this, was the effort put into assuring me I had an trustworthy outlet, and a place to turn to, and only to be told that my feelings didn't matter when the truth came out.
Right or wrong, I still have feelings. I'm still a person, and at the end of the day, it that doesn't matter, than that means I don't matter.
But what did I expect to be honest.
I'm no angel. I've used people.. I've lied, I've been unfaithful..
But I actually gave a damn for the people afterwards.
I don't know what scared me so much.. realizing I had been gaslit again, realizing I had been on the other end of the stick.
Losing the people I've loved one by one had made me less and less trusting.
I hate myself for opening up so quickly out of desperation.. out of emptiness.. and to actually end up caring.
My trust issues are no one else's problem but my own.
I was stating to apologize and try to work around it... but he didn't care how it made me feel.
So maybe it's best to end it here.
Sincerely,
Me
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