Do Not Disturb

2018-06-17 14:15:10 (UTC)

Body Image

Dear journal,

I've always had a problem with the way that I look with my body and what I wear. My ex assumed that I was pregnant. I mean I'm not even that fat. I'm just chubby. But I guess to him I was. It bothered me and it still does. That's why you only see me wearing dresses or pants. Mostly pants.

I would wanna be skinny like other girls. It still bothers me until this day. And I just wanna cry because of it. I mean yes I have stretch marks around my arms and the side of my stomach but I thought most guys like that stuff. But I guess not. It makes me wanna starve myself to death. Or to just eat less.

My Grandma says that I've gained weight as well. I was saying how skinny I was. And then my Grandma said," Where?" And that was when we was at the casino and I was with James at the time. He thought I was pregnant and everything. I mean what's wrong with having a little meat on your body and stretch marks. He always say that I'm fat and stuff when I'm not. I just have a pug that's all. I'm honestly glad I'm single. But I blocked him. It seemed like the break up didn't affect him at all but it affected me. He seems to be enjoying being single. He probably got another hoe texting him. But its whatever. He broke up with me. Its his lost that he lost an amazing girl like me. Its all my ex's lost. I'm just gonna enjoy being single. Fuck James.

Write more as soon as possible


The Forgotten One