Scream Above the Sounds
It's been a while since I've wrote here. Not because I've been busy or anything. Things are as boring as ever. I guess I just haven't had anything worth talking or complaining about.
I didn't go on my date in the end. She couldn't get a babysitter or something so she talked about rescheduling for another time but i'm not really that bothered about it. We haven't spoken all that much and neither of us are probably that fussed about it. I don't even feel that interested at the thought of a relationship or even seeing somebody. Not because I'm hung up on the past or the way I'm feeling. I actually feel quite good about things generally. I honestly think I'll be too busy for a relationship anyway. This studying is full time and I'm probably going to have gaming commitments in the evening, which will likely be 3 nights a week. I don't need a relationship to be happy. Not right now anyway. Maybe someday. I just feel a bit alone and isolated. I don't really leave my house besides work and it's depressing.
One of my best friends who works away is coming home soon so we're going to have a night out. That should be decent. I think I'm helping my two friends who are married move house next week too. It might be the week after. I'm not sure. It'll be nice to see them. I just wish sometimes they asked me to do something because they wanted my company, not because they need me. I mean I'm happy to help them anyway but I just wish they made more of an effort with me. I'm done when it comes to chasing people.
I got my unconditional offer from the college via e-mail today so I need to go and enrol there asap and get that out of the way. The course is only £30 so I'm pretty happy with that. I've also been sorting out flights for Sweden. I think I'm going at the end of July.