Scream Above the Sounds
Okay, so it turns out I'm not going in to work tonight. Maybe this is it. Maybe I just can't go back, ever. My mum has told me to just hand my notice in and be done with it. She was completely against me walking away originally without anywhere else to go but I think she's starting to understand what the past few weeks have done to me.
Me and my mum don't have an amazing relationship, I mean we get on great. She definitely had no idea the levels of pain I was in or what everything that has happened in the past month has done to me. The impact and shock of everything. She's told me to walk away because she probably thinks I'll never recover from this unless I do that. Maybe she's right. I don't know.
I think it's going to really test my character returning to work, if and when I choose to do so. The thought of it just turns my stomach right now. Right now I just want some peace, I just want to get a really good nights sleep and try and access everything.