Do Not Disturb

2018-04-24 23:13:56 (UTC)

I Don't Understand

I told him I understand when clearly a part of me doesn't. I asked to see him today when their was an already 50/50 % chance I wasn't and that I was correct of. He's tired and I need to respect that. He likes me ( I think) and I really like him. But he's such a lady's men. He'll forget about me in a second. He's single. He's hot. I'm not. I doubt he would consider being in a relationship with a girl like me because like A said I'm crazy and I assume guys only want to have sex with me and nothing more.That's THE only reason why he blocked me and well I'm sorry if, I've had bad relationships with guys and that being the only reason and I'm sorry if, I have trust issues. I like M but I just want to be friends with him. Well, at least for now. He says that he likes me and that he loves me. I only kinda sorta like him but I still just want to remain friends. I mess everything up. I will never forgive any of my ex's that have done me wrong and maybe I deserve it. I still miss my ex. 6 months and I was planning on a long relationship like grow old kind of relationship but that didn't happen because I messed things up with him. He broke up with me and I deserve it. I deserve to be hurt. I don't deserve to be in a relationship. No guy deserve to like me because all I do is mess up with every guy I talk to because they just want sex from me ect....ect.... The main reason why I'm still and it's only being a month. Still no c college. No act. No nothing. No job. No nothing. But as long as I have God everything will be alright. Right??? I mean it has to. I'm still trying to figure out my life. And so far that has failed tremendously. Deleted Meetme again. I'm addicted to the social media and that's bad on my part. But that will stop as of today. Hopefully.

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The Forgotten One

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