Todayy

A southern life
2018-03-11 22:30:38 (UTC)

Heart beating again

This is the first time in a long time where my heart has pounded insanely fast. Its the first time in a long time where I’m extremely nervous, my stomach was all twisted my hands where shaking I could literally feel my heart pounding every second it felt like it was going to jump out of my chest. I don’t think he noticed me but I sure did notice him. He has brown shaggy hair a full beard but not like a hipsters and big brown eyes. He was wearing a hoodie with a zipper today it looked kind of old I think it was grayish or maroonish color. I didn’t get to go to his register but his voice was loud enough to hear, i think he has a slight accent. He was wearing his name tag but I couldn’t see it. This is my 4th time seeing him. I don’t know anything about him, just his face. every time I do see him it’s kind of late on the weekends. My heart hasn’t felt like this in a long time. I really miss him.
Maybe he has a girlfriend or maybe he’s gay. My odds are very slim but I finally filled out an application and turned it in. I don’t know if I’ll get the job. I was nervous filling out the application and my handwriting looked a bit sloppy. I also didn’t provide a resume and only one job that I had in the past that was relevant to the position I was applying for. I honestly just want the job to get closer to him.
I know this maybe sort of insane but this is the only way I can think of that I can get close to him. This would be totally normal back then since there wasn’t any internet or anything like that.
I’m not really thinking my actions through. I get caught up in the moment and I just go for it.




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