LustingforNightmares

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2018-02-28 21:25:16 (UTC)

baby cries


"The Breeze/My Baby Cries" by Bill Callahan [cover of Kath Bloom]

I'd like to touch you
But I've forgotten how
Said I didn't need you,
but look at me now
Sometime in the summer
When we're lying the breeze,
The breeze will kill me
The breeze
...
You can never be sure of the people you know
They don't want to show you their sadness
Yesterday I talked with my father
He said that we could never win
It's so hard to tell where I am
and my father begins

So if you see me passing by
Please hold me deep in your heart
And just remember, I want to help you
I don't want to hurt you
Just remember, I want to help you, I don't want to hurt you
So don't tear it apart

My baby cries when he's tired
My puppy howls with the moon

February 27, 2018 Tuesday 11:41 AM

Disappoint me! over and over. It's okay. I want to be disappointed. I want to know what you do and think under the expectations. Be wrong, I don't care, it's fine it's okay, I am investing in the letdown. So that it can be real, and I can settle down in my anxiety knowing that I am not blind. I don't know if this makes sense—it likely doesn't. I am being purposefully vague, because I don't want to look as if I'm taking this too seriously (even though that's useless, I take everything too seriously so why would this be an exception?). But just know, sometimes I feel ready to be very disappointed in people, and sometimes it's better that way anyway. With friends, saying a thing just a hare wrong, or maybe they say it right and I am less disappointed with how they are than with how little I feel about them.

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February 28, 2018 Wednesday 2:24 PM

AHHHH IM SHAKING AHHHH I NEED TO STOP MY HANDS ARE VIBRATING AND SO ARE MY EYES AND I FEAR THEY WILL SHIVER OUT OF MY SOCKETS AND HANG FROM THE OPTIC NERVE TO REST UPON MY CHEEKS AND then THEY WILL JUMP UP AND DOWN AGAINST MY SKIN AS THE NERVE PALPITATES AND JERKS AND FUCK, THE BODY DO NOT LISTEN. IT DO NOT HEAR.


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