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LHJ19
2018-02-24 18:06:58 (UTC)

Thinking about you

I've been smoking weed a lot more lately, and it really hit me that i miss Lorenzo. I don't ever think that void made by him will ever be filled, i miss him and will always miss him. It's his 18th birthday today, and i can't believe I've known that boy since 13 turning 14. How fast time flies always amazes me. I heavily wish i was still friends with him, i wish i stilled talked to him. I've been thinking that it wasn't worth it to get involved with his best friend, never ever was it okay. There's so much temptations in life and it is very easy to slip up anytime. No matter what day it is, Lorenzo will always be in my heart. Honestly, he probably hates me for what i did but that's okay. We are not placed on this earth to worry about if others are going to like us or not, but rather to make a difference and leave behind pieces of wisdom and guidance for others. I think my life would've been a lot different if i was still with Lorenzo. I wish the best for him and i'm glad he found somebody he loves enough to have a baby with. I'm glad we didn't work out in a way because he was ready for things i wasn't ready for. Like sex and a baby, but hey... He's found that and he's in a happy place in his life. I probably would've became pregnant with his child and i'm thankful things did not turn out that way. I used to pray and ask God about this situation, and he always showed me the way but sometimes i would just go out on a limb myself and do whatever. Sometimes things do not work out because it is not meant to happen, it doesn't reveal itself then but it will in due time.




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