Do Not Disturb

2018-02-16 04:23:59 (UTC)


I honestly miss Darian even though I never want to see his face ever again.... I mis Nathan. even though he doesn't want to talk to me or just be friends with me only because I have a boyfriend. I told him I loved him once he never responded after he specifically told me that he also loved me back but then again I guess that was a lie and is just a sign that he never wants to talk to me ever AGAIN!!! I wanna cry. I'm the most confusing person that you'll ever meet. I know I've said that a thousand times. Theirs a lot of things that I've said in this diary a THOUSAND TIMES but I'm the only who seems to be complaining and bitching about it. Still true and always will be. And as for Derrick well that's a different story now that he's off to the military without even consulting me.... It hurted even worse and I still remember that day until this day and it hurts even worse just to even think about it but then again he doesn't give a flying fuck either everytime I try and talk to him... He shuts me out. I mean I know we been through a LOT and that slapping was wrong of me to do ro him... But he deserved it.... Ughhh!!! No wonder he's busy. Or it could be the fact that he doesn't want anything to do with me but it doesn't matter anymore. I was so stupid. He never listened so I don't know why I even bother on trying with him. He never cared so I won't. He's changed. He's not the same guy that I met. And yet their he is again with his shirt off. That's a weakness of mine. But now that I have a boyfriend.... Things change and he probably has one too... A girlfriend... Or not... Not like I care... Even though I do.... Just don't want to say it and here I am saying it... I fall in love way to easy. But I love one person and one person only and that is my boyfriend... 😊... And he actually makes me happy out of the many times I've actually said this in many msny of my diary entries and you're probably getting tired of me talking about him but honestly I don't really care that's only because its true and everything I write in here is true its a diary..... Duhh... I talk to myseld waaaayyy to much... But its oh so true. The same guy was trying to hit onnme even when I specifically told him I have a boyfrie d and this is the second time that it has happened but then again my mom got all freaked out about kt because I posted the shit on Facebook. Like I'm not allowed to post anything on the page... MY PAGE... Hell I might as well delete the damn thing if,all I'm gonna do is post videos ( which I do anyways). But I deleted it anyways because I was told to... By my mom. I just don't feel comfortable in that situation and things even got more serious when she told my dad about it and it didn't really help at all. I'm getting stressed out over nothing. Overall this was a shitty day. Can it be Friday already??? Can't wait to leave for Bibb Saturday morning. When I grow up I wanna move far away from my hometown as possible but with my loved one of coarse. And even if I do its not like I'll forget my own mother. I mean she's the one who gave birth to me at the age of 17. Or is it 19. Idk. Idk so much about my brother Noah but Jonothan I will but I could at least try. He's still my brother. Even though he can be a pain in the ass... Correction... He is a pain in the ass...

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