Jen just jen

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2018-02-06 18:40:21 (UTC)

So remember when?

so remember when i said i wan to have compassion for my mother instead of getting mad at her?
you can just ignore that
because it's she's the one living in a goddamn dreamland
she's on her phone complaining about her problems, all the things she ahs to do all day.
then when she minds a moment to talk to me about my plans for today she pretends like the past four months don't even exist.
like the fact that i've been doing absolutley nothing for a long time has no bearing on the present.

I'm done living in her dreamland and that's why i'm done making an effort.
I need an actual mother.

I need someone to talk to about my life, and she needs to visit the real world once in a while if she wants a peice of me.
that's all
I'm done pretending like i'm the one with all the problems.
i'm the goddamn canary in the coal mine. someone should really pay more attention to me.




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