Mon

Black
2018-02-06 15:24:57 (UTC)

Whatever you need to think is ok or shit

Everything were finally going well.
I was happy until today. I don't know what happened to me. Maybe I have way too many demon in me.
I can't stay happy, I guess. I have to always ruin everything.
I was just reading some stories online and then I just stopped. Now, I am thinking "what's the hell do I want? " - I don't really know.
Autumn loves me but I know something is missing. Why can't I feel the bliss of happiness? !
I was reading a romance story. Then something happened to me. I am still thinking what is the meaning of my life. Nobody to care for, nobody to love.
Meaning less thought!
Why can't I just live my life and forget something from the past. The past is so horrible that every single time I think about them, I cry.

I cry for my dignity.
I cry for my helplessness.
I cry because I am so pathetic!

Remembering the past is like Dieing again and again. I just can't take that anymore.
I am trying to stay sane.
I am just. . . . . .
I need. . . .




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