Do Not Disturb

2018-01-11 22:59:04 (UTC)

Sooo... He told me he loved me ???

Ethan told me he loved me the other day ( yesterday) even when I told him that I have a boyfriend... He didn't care. I haven't seen him since we were little kids bit he didn't care. I mean sure yea.I've had feelings for him and actually liked him. But I don't know if, I still have those feelings for him. I mean I have a boyfriend. He video chatted with me for a little while and called me sexy and beautiful even when my hair was everywhere. And from this day forward I didn't think of anybody but him and from what he said yesterday. Do I still have feelings for him??? Maybe. Hut I have a boyfriend. I mean you Cant have a boyfriend and and like someone else can you. He was like a best friend to me and he still is. It would be great to see him again but I don't know I don't know how my boyfriend would feel about that and not knowing that he likes me as well. I mean what's their is to like about me. I'm nothing compared to those other girls guys seems to like. I do miss him though I can't lie abou that. I'm not a cheater. And I wouldn't even think to consider cheating on him. Me and him are better of as friends as of now. It would be different if, I was single but who knows how long that will be. But I can't believe he would actually wait that long for me. Or did he??? Not so sure. He got all msd when I said he didn't mean it and he said he did... Deeply loved... Today is his birthday. He told me thay I can stop tecting him if, I wanted to but to be honest I don't want to. But at least I forgot about Malichi... Until I said his name. And I doubt that he likes me either and he's my boyfriend's brother that's just wrong in so many ways. I didn't get any sleep last night. I didn't go to sleep until around four this morning. I have trouble sleeping as I said a million times in my previous entries. And as you can tell thay I'm boy obsessed. And have been ever since I was a little kid. And plus I'm a girl. Now all of a sudden I feel tired. My body is completely worn out. I wish I taken a nap today but who says I can't right now. That's all I can do is sleep since I have nothing else better to do with my life. Maybe I should get a job at Dillards at where he works at. Or maybe not. Either way I need a job... And ASAP... I get bored easily and that you have heard me say a lot lately... Because I do... I didn't do anything all day but sleep until about around one. Walked my dog... You know the usual...

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The Forgotten One