Do Not Disturb

UnBothered
2018-01-06 00:15:15 (UTC)

Idk..

Maybe I should just go on a diet or become a vegan to lose weight. Almost every clothes I try on I can't fit into. I use to be a medium now I'm a large. I just ate three slices of pizza today and I wish I hadn't...I should've just ate one slice if pizza.... or just none at all... I wanna excersize but everytime I say I do... I don't... I wish I didn't drink any sodas... that day ...on New Year's Eve....but I did.... I did drink a root beer and it was good... I admit... Glad I didn't get a second plate. I mean I thought about it but I did. I eat when I'm stress... I stress eat... And I have stretch marks around my arm. My arm looks flabby. My boobs is big and I hate it. My boyfriend may love it because he's a guy. But I... I hate it... Because their always in the way of everything. I can never try anything on because everytime I try on clothes I look fat in them.... And when I'm in the changing room I look in the mirror while I'm changing into my clothes.... Like that one time I was attending a wedding... And I couldn't fit into a medium anymore.... I looked in the mirror.... With nothing but panties and bra.... I've gained so much... Its ridiculous... And my 12 year old brother makes fun of me for it. I don't wanna be fat. I Wish I could stay skinny but everything I eat I feel even fatter than before.. My mom bought me this really cute sweater... I tried on the shirt.... it fits... but it was really tight...on my arm.... See what I mean.... No matter what I fit into.... I feel fat in... And theirs this guy that's always constantly hitting on me when I don't like him and my cousins are always trying to get him to talk to me when I don't like him... I don't like him that way... Nor will I ever... I have a boyfriend that actually likes me and actually calls me beautiful.... Everytime I eat something that is junk food wise... I regret on eating it... Maybe I should go on a strict diet... Idk... I'm not perfect... Nor is my body... People say I'm thick... Idk if that's considered a good or bad thing... To me it must be a bad thing. Sometimes I just hate my life... I just wanna cry all the time because.... I'm that emotional sensitive girl that no one likes...

Sincerely,


The Forgotten One


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