Phillip Wilson

Amazingly, I survived my Life
2011-09-30 00:04:34 (UTC)

2003 REVIEW (PART THIRTY-FOUR)

October- Childersburg, AL (continues)

The First Lady of California, Maria Shriver, is a niece of Ted Kennedy, the senator and sole remaining Kennedy brother. Because of his past - Chappaquiddick - he is not “allowed” to be president. But Arnold Schwarzenegger? In spite of his past, Ted Kennedy may be working behind the scenes to elevate Schwarzenegger from Sacramento to Washington! Sure, Schwarzenegger is a Republican, but his uncle's a Democrat: If Ted Kennedy can't be president, the next best thing is another family member in the White House!
And again, Hillary Clinton may have had something to do with Arnold Schwarzenegger's victory. If she indeed wants the White House in 2008, a Democrat can't win next year: He or she will seek re-election in 2008. So she may have manipulated events so California will be Republican, thereby ensuring the electoral votes for George W. Bush in 2004!
Democracy in action! Don't “you” just love it?
Most of my “strange” outlook on politics is a result from watching THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:25 P..M.,P.B.S.) too much! But not all of it: Joyce reminded me this morning of the Kennedy connection.
But then again, Arnold Schwarzenegger may have been “elected” governor of California for the same reason Jesse Ventura was chosen governor of Minnesota: As a protest vote against the political system! That he (Schwarzenegger) is a film star may also had help: He may be a perfect spokesperson for California! The import of Hollywood movies is, for good or bad, a major financial mainstay for California and the United States! Maybe oversea sales of movies is the only cure for the state's economic woes!
A lot of women wish they could be ravished by Arnold Schwarzenegger! They would gladly trade places with his accusers!
Will Schwarzenegger ever make another film? I doubt it! Some people may find that refreshing! Me, I really don't care!

(acerca de 2:17 P.M.) I wonder why I “nodded off” during “Lewis and Clark: The Corps of Discovery” 8-9:44 P.M.,P.B.S.) that KEN BURNS' AMERICAN STORIES presented yesterday (Part I)? It is not as if I am a Lewis and Clark expert!
If you remember I did a research project on the Washington Irving-Mark Twain connection to the Louisiana Purchase: How both writers may have been influenced by the sudden doubling of the United States! So you would think that I would be alert and attentive!
Ken Burns did a great job in humanizing Lewis and Clark and the other members of the Corps of Discovery! The expedition is usually romanticized beyond belief!
So why did I choose this time to “sleep”? I was tired, sure, but that explains only part of it.
Could it have been because I first saw the show in Tallahassee, FL, when I was living with Anita Matlow in 1997 or 1998? Was Sleep relieving me of the pain?
But is it right to blame “Lewis and Clark: The Corps of Discovery” for my stupidity? Ken Burns had nothing to do with it!
Where would I have lived in Tallahassee if not with Anita Matlow? Could it be that deep down I was taking advantage of Anita Maslow's domestic needs?
Was our relationship symbiotic? Did I mooch off of her as much as she mooch off of me? I mean, she provided me with a relatively inexpensive (as well as things) place to live! And I was a subject of a rare sexual treat: The morning I woke and found Dominique between my thighs, which have been made bare during the night.
So maybe I shouldn't be so hard on Anita Matlow! We were just too opposite to ___!

(acerca de 3:1_ P.M.) I did a horrible thing this morning! Simple horrible!
Sweat started falling my hair while I was “de-mudding” the back yard drainage ditch. So I took the hearing aid from my ear, and put it on a plastic bag. I stuffed the bag into the bigger bag that contained my gloves, cap, clippers, etc.
Later when going through the bigger bag, I came upon the clear plastic bag holding my hearing aid. Having forgotten all about it, I dropped the clear bag on the cement floor of the “carport” of the shop (Building “G”). This is where I store my things.
Soon I was searching for my hearing aid. With alarm, I remembered where it was! I don't have to tell you that I was panicky over what I had done to the clear bag!
But I was lucky this time: My hearing aid was undamaged. However, what might have happened was a “wake-up call”! I will now take the official storage box to work every day!
My lower back has received a message from Rain: Lumbago is most pronounced! Though the Rain hasn't arrived yet! Which is amazing, given the condition of the sky this morning!
The upper-70⁰'s (F) just may do something to the flowers! Thank You, Fall!
The sky is as if nothing was “peculiar” about it this morning! Phoebus, however, is a witness, and demanded They give up the foolish ways, or It (Phoebus) would tell on It (the sky).
A pack of cigarettes is now $1.61, as one use to be up until 2-3 weeks ago.
I wonder if Linda realizes that by signing up for a leg transplant, she is agreeing to “play God”? Probably not: She is the type that what is not for her benefit is “playing God”!

(acerca de 7:17 P.M.) A lot of people across the country signed up for the “No Call” list in order to prevent those pesky telemarketers from calling during dinner, on weekends, etc. However, the U.S. Supreme Court or some judiciary declared that the list can't be: It would put thousands of people out of work! Never mind that the calls are invasions of privacy! Capitalism trumps democracy every time!
I believe it was Tuesday - yesterday, right? - that I stated to David - he was standing at the kitchen sink, and I was aseated in Joyce's place at the kitchen table - that I was about ready to go to Ph.D. school! Anything to get the hell away from here!
Milt told me something amazing this morning: CACC's 2004 budget is larger than it was in 2003! I figured the defeat of Gov. Riley's tax increase would mean less money next year!
Private sponsors are supporting the athletic teams - baseball, golf,volley ball - that exist on the main (Alex City) campus, especially Purcell and the golf team.

(9th, About 5:56 A.M.) People live in small towns for many reasons: Ofentimes it's not by choice, as with me! And David!
Many people claim small-town life is the true America - back in the latter part of the 18th century when the constitution was “created,” the focus of the country was on the Small-town - that a small town is an escape from the lawless and constitution-bashing of the Big Town.
Not so, my friend! Just the opposite from the above! A small-town is the ideal place to “duck” the necessity of having to pay tribute to the constitution!
Why didn't anybody complain about this street being blocked off? Why was it blocked off in the first place? It's bad enough that the city may have opposed the law, but the occupant of the house, if s/he is responsible, “vocal” in her/his loyalty to organized religion!
As I told David, a small town is just the place for terrorists to hide out! Hell, they could hide out in the wooded area of this neighborhood and probably never be caught!
I was part of the “team” that went in search of an escaped elephant in the Everglades in South Florida, in 1977 while with Circus Vargas. I remember thinking that the elephant could live for months in the place! It is obvious why fugitives and moonshiners take - or took - shelter there!
So what's preventing terrorists from setting up shop in the Everglades?
A correction: In reality, the United States constitution was made for a select group of city folk! The vast majority of Americans had no interest in, and were not affected by, the constitution!

(acerca de 12:08 P.M.) That hill looks like an elephant with diarhea walked across it!
As you well know, I am transferring clumps of sod from the backyard drainage ditch to the barren hill across the street from Building “F.” When the hunks dry I will squash them, but until then, elephant dung appears to be scattered across the hill!
How do I know what elephant “shit” looks like? I have shovelled enough of it in my day!
Circus Fans would (still do?) take the cylindical fecal matter home, shellac it, and displayed it!
There is something wrong with those kinds of people!
Arnold Schwarzenegger can never be president of the United States, if such is his goal! Not unless the constitution is changed: Governor elected Schwarzenegger was born in Austria, and one must be a native born citizen to be president.
That requirement needs to be amended, anyway: There are too many non-natives nowadays! And non-natives are usually better Americans than native-borns!
I have a feeling, though, that even when the constitution was written in the late-1780's, there were many non-natives in the country! Was the requirement inserted as a desperate attempt to hold on to power, by the small group of men that “wrote” the constitution? I assume you are aware of the fact that the constitution is more of a “business contract” than a document protecting people! Kind of what the Magna Carta is!
On the other hand, the Founding Fathers didn't want a person coming to this country just to be a power-holder! Or at least that is what “we the people” are suppose to believe!
But back to Schwarzenegger: No matter what one thinks of him, he will never follow in Ronald Reagan's shoes! Though why would anybody want to?
What if I had thrown my hearing aid - in a clear plastic bag - away yesterday? What a terrible thought! That is why I took my carrying case to work with me this morning! And I used it!

(acerca de 2:17 P.M.) “What a cute baby human!” “What a cute baby deer!”
Yesterday evening when Joyce, Kayla- she had been brought over around 4:30 - and I were outside, 4 or 5 deer made appearances in the wooded area behind the house. As we stood in the drive way watching the deer, the deer stood at the “edge” of the “forest” watching us! Their (the deer) eyes were aimed at us. It was a human-deer staring contest that the former eventually won: If you seen one human, you seem them all!
Around 7:10 Kaya went home with Leslie, who had come for her. For the first time I can remember, Kayla's body language “pleaded” for a hug, not just a “give me five,” from me! I even bent down for a kiss on the cheek (from Kayla)! She (Kayla) has probably wondered all these years why I “accept” only “five” from her when everybody else hugs her!
The second part of “Lewis and Clark: The Journey of the Corps of Discovery” (8-9:43 P.M., P.B.S.) was aired yesterday. And I never once “nodded off” during it! Sure the program is interesting - one of the better AMERICAN STORIES that KEN BURNS has done - but I almost believe that my superdiet (spaghetti and later a milk shake) fought off premature slumber!
History seems to be a never-ending series of déja-vus! I figured that out when I realized what the United States is becoming!

(acerca de 3:41 P.M.) Yesterday morning, after Joyce and I had arrived at CACC and were preparing to walk into the administration building, I made a special point of asking Joyce if she was going out to lunch (she usually does on Wednesday). Upon her negative response, I made plans for my usual 11:30 “getting-off-work” schedule.
Around 11:_5 A.M., I was looking over the flowers I had transplanted in the “bed” across from the library (I have a feeling that the roots would do a lot better job without having to worry about the leaves and flowers until they become adjusted to their [the roots] new home. So I had “de-capitated” the roots) when who drove up and stopped on my left? Leslie with her mother as a passenger! Indeed they were going out for lunch! David would be my ride home!
David stopped, intentionally, about an inch from Kayla's play house when he pulled into the driveway. I was amazed that his brakes were that good!
Joyce made a smart-ass comment about the closeness of his truck to the playhouse later in the evening, saying that he would pay $200 if he runs over it!
I have no doubt that Joyce blames David for the administrative slowness of the graduate school program! Doesn't she realize that she is doing irreparable damage to her relationship with David? Or does she care?
Joyce wants David to have the focus that she wants him to have! Talk about living through one's child!
She also was nasty with him when he didn't deal with Kayla like she thought he should have, telling the child that, “Leave David along: He's in a bad mood!”
David now knows what I have been enduring for nearly five years! He can escape: I can't!
Again the gods sent a Decorator that “cut corners”: It used one Cloud and made that Cloud cover the entire sky! The Decorator didn't subscribe to Phoebus at all: Its (Phoebus) fee is too “high”!
Neither was Rain a part of the plan: Unless Phoebus picks up the “option,” which may happen.
In another cost-saving move, only the mid-70⁰'s (F) were hired.
We demand a different Decorator, You gods!
Yesterday morning? The morning before that (Tuesday)? I “explained” that Taco Bell is inducing kids to be on the highway in the middle of the night by staying open until 3:00 A.M., on Saturday. Joyce stated the late opening was for travelers. That's the theory, but not the reality! How, then, can society react negatively to teens being out late when capitalism make profit more important than the safety of kids?

(acerca de 6:27 P.M.) I can live in two worlds. Not at the same time, but I can travel between the two in less than a second! Just by taking the hearing aid out of my ear or putting the hearing aid in place.
It is amazing what register with me when the hearing aid is in! For example, it was out of my ear yesterday when I was in the shop, examining the newly-arrived flowers. I could have sworn Milt said something like, “Tomorrow we may not have a job!”! I was in the hearing aid-less world. If I had to guess, though, I would say what Milt really said was “Tomorrow we may all work on the flowers!” or something like that: After four years (no, five!) I can figure out what I suppose to be hearing, not what I am hearing!
Jokingly, I “warned” David about parking so close to Kayla's house, when he “pulled” into the driveway with me in the passenger seat! I wasn't told of his coming: I just noticed his pick-up as I was talking to the inmates!
Telemarketing forms are in essence “hands off” in spite of the invasion of privacy they cause, because of jobs. Well, the tobacco industry also provide employment, and it is “hounded” due to “corporeal” invasion! Why the difference of treatment?

(10th, About 8:09 A.M.) Drizzle was just beginning Its shift when I led Deah on a walk around 11:45 P.M. Drizzle was still on duty when I took Deah out this morning around 7:45. Either Drizzle was (is) slobbering, foaming at the mouth because of Phoebe's appeal, or Drizzle is watching Deah's every move!
Maybe Deah is the sex pot!
As I was dragging the newest (I had come upon this carrier for used oxygen tanks and Blow Torch Wednesday, but it wasn't until Milt “suggested” I use it that the carrier was made available) handtruck with the green plastic carton filled with sod yesterday. Folks, wet sod is heavy! I was trying to manuver more than my weight across grassy ground. I farted while so doing, but I was fearful that I may have traumatized my hemorrhoids. Fortunately, though, no blood was in my “stool” yesterday evening! But it was yet another “wake-up call,” the second one this week! I can't say that I wasn't warned in the event that something goes wrong!

(acerca de 8:32 A.M.) What other proof do you need that the Founding Fathers were only looking out for their own self-interest and never once considered the Average American when they created the United States, one has only to see what's “coming down” with the Bush administration and Iraq! Surely you didn't buy this “liberation” nonsense? Don't believe for a moment the “for the people, of the people, and by the people” crap that Abraham Lincoln spo_ted! After all, he was president of the United States, not an important factor in American society!
That's right, I watched THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:25 P.M.,P.B.S.) yesterday! Is it that obvious?
A half-hour of juggling - especially “circle” juggling with the speed of the right arm increasing daily - is physically “taxing”! It is more so when you consider that transferring sod from ditch to hill takes a lot of a 53-year old man! About 7:50 P.M., I really wasn't feeling “fit” for anything - juggling, writing, or reading - so I sought succor from television. I first saw the “tail end” of a news conference by House Minority Leader Nancy Pelosi (?) on C-Span 2. Then I watched the House Appropriation Committee on C-Span.
Then the centerpiece of my evening: FRONTLINE (9-10:30 P.M., P.B.S.).
One more show, and that would be all: NIGHTLINE (10:35-11:05 P.M., A.B.C.).
Isn't it ironic that it was Hitler's land grab policies that resulted in the Holocaust, yet Isreal practices land grabs against the Palestinians? The wall that Isreal is encircling around the “territories” is essentially creating a ghetto! And the Jewish people recall with horror their confinement in ghettoes!
As in the United States, there is hysteria in Isreal over terrorism. As bad as a suicide bomber is, the chances of being a victim of terrorism is probably greater than being killed by gang violence or traffic!
I first heard it from Steve Holt, then I read it in “Humanities” magazine, in an interview with Vartan Gregorian, president of Carnegie Corporation of New York: There is a difference between a vocation and an avocation, or a job and a career. A vocation or job is how one supports her/himself, where as an avocation or career is one's raison d'etre for living. In today's world, my “position” at CACC is my vocation or job (such as it is!). You, Journal, are my avocation or career! You are what I am living for!

(acerca de 10:30 A.M.) The main core of the Bush administration had years to develop a plan for post-Saddam Iraq. I have no doubt that the plan was worked out to the smallest detail! The “Cabal” probably knew that it would have trouble with the Iraqi people, given the Cabal's design.
What the Cabal didn't count on was the resistance it would meet in the United States: And it (the Cabal) failed to develop a contingency plan for what may prove more difficult to the post-Saddam Iraq than will the Iraqi people.
Granny is concerned, as she should be, to cruelty to animals. But she isn't concerned about the “cruel streak” in herself: Her cruelty to people, especially to African Americans. How can animal rights advocates kill humans, an animal? How can Pro-lifers kill abortion-providers, a Life? Just ask granny!

(acerca de 3:07 P.M.) I have already related with you my belief that the Bush administration does, indeed, have a definite plan for post-Saddam Iraq: George W. Bush and partners, including Colin Powell, have had years to work out the details.
What I want to know, though, is what part did the United States Supreme Court play in the “conspiracy” that made it use the power vested in it to select George W. Bush in 2000 when it saw that, contrary to “arrangements,' Al Gore was about to be named president of the United States?
Maybe entertainer Harry Belafonte was correct when he labelled, about a year ago, Colin Powell a “house slave”: That Powell had to heed to the Bush policy or be sent back to the “fields”!
It has been a dreary wet day! The Cloud, in being flattened, has let loose Drizzle the entire day. But at least the mid-70⁰'s (F) has put some life into the day!
The right side of my mouth is numb: Dr. Sligh implanted a temporary crown. Starting around 1:30 P.M., the ordeal required a little over an hour. David took me to town, and brought me home when I contacted him via his cell phone.
Why not Al Gore in the White House? He should be there already: I joined the “Draft Gore” movement that is steadily gaining momentum! Let's face it: None of the regular nine Democratic candidates are exciting!

(11th, About 8:46 A.M.) If the outcome of a political election depended on the voters, I would say, no, term limitations are anti-democratic: If people want the candidate/office-holder for more than two terms (or whatever the term-limit law would be), then they can choose her/him. Conversely, if the people don't want a candidate/office holder pass one term, they don't have to vote for her/him!
But in reality the people don't choose “leaders”: Corporations, political machines, etc, determine who will be in city hall, the governor's mansion, and the White House! Under such a system term limitations would be ideal: At least some degree of democracy will still surround the election process!
As I understand it, the Republican Party “installed” term limits on the presidency simply because it wanted “revenge” for FDR having “won” the White House four times! This in itself proves that the electoral process is not controlled by the people! It also proves that money and power will cancel “democracy” every time! Even though there were no political parties as such when the United States got going in the late-18th century, surely you don't think it was any different back then!
Association with Steve and Mary Holt screwed up the second part of the first fifty years of my life! I'll be go to hell if they will get a “shot” at the first part of the second fifty years of my life! I would like to have a good twenty years or so without what I mistakenly considered friends from 1968 through 2000!

(acerca de 9:32 A.M.) Grown-ups are fond of stating, “She only 16 (or 12, or 14, etc): What does she (or he) know about love?” Probably more than most grown-ups! Just because a person is 23, or 34, or 56 doesn't mean he or she knows what love is! Why, look at Joyce, or granny, or Anita Matlow, or - there are an endless supply of examples out there!
An unwed teen female (or male) is co-erced and intimidated into giving up her (or his) baby for adoption, being told that she (he) is too young to raise a child properly! Shall we examines the child-rearing skills of other people?
Charles Dickens , Flaubert - just to name two writers - wrote for newspapers and magazines: The vast majority of their literary output was for serialization. Only later was all the installments combined into novels. That was in the 19th century when magazines and newspapers were the leading media in a person's life.
But now television has the hegemony in people's “cultural” appetite. And it has been said pretentious “scrum bags” that writing is suffering as a result. But who knows if semi-serial television will not produced the important novels of the 22nd century! Screen plays may spawn the newest “The Iliad”!

(acerca de 10:36 A.m.) Guess what the lead story on ABC WORLD NEWS and NBC NEWS was yesterday (5:30-6:00 P.M.): Rush Limbaugh's public acknowledgement that he was addicted to painkillers! The conservation talk radio host is a drug addict! With all the problems in Iraq, and the Democratic presidential candidates, this is the major piece of news! There is something wrong with American society when such “news” upstages everything else!
But on the other hand, Mr. Limbaugh did the coun- a great service: There are many people addicted to prescription medication and won't admit it for fear of the “drug addict” label! What Mr. Limbaugh did affects people's lives more that Iraq or the presidential campaign!
I first saw the Limbaugh story on MSNBC in the Family Room. And the rest of my television was in the Family Room yesterday: Kayla was here over night, having been brough around 4:30 P.M.
Rush Limbaugh made a remark concerning an NFL quarterback, who is African American, that can only be described as racist. Is he trying to link the comment to his drug addiction? And will it work? If so, then people will start excusing their anti-social behavior on prescription medication! And do we really want that?

(acerca de 11:16 A.M.) Professional basketball player Kobe Bryant, accused of rape, gave a press conference that was carried by MSNBC yesterday. He was defending himself. David didn't that that a suspect should be allowed to plea her/his case via a press conference. Technically s/he shouldn't have the opportunity: A judge should issue a restraining order against such extra-court activities. However, it's only fair that a defendant grabs the opportunity to defend her-/himself! The media is quick to announce the arrest of a person leading to an automatic quilty verdict and a reluctance to allow the suspect a trial! The media takes away a person's presumption of innocence!
Most people are quick to assume guilt, but they turn away from the suspect “describing” her/his innocence!

(acerca de 12:27 P.M.) As she did for the other “crown,” Dr. Sligh suggested a non-prescribed painkiller for when my gum returns to feeling status.
Dr. Maulin supplied me, at a cost, with painkillers for Deah when she had her dental proceedure that resulted in a lose of seven teeth.
In both cases, the pain-killer was rejected! In fact I still have Deah's in unopened bottles abandoned on the “dresser”!
A physician or vet can't be blamed for advising pain-killers: She/he are only “covering” her/his ass by prescribing the pain-killers! If the patient abuses the medicine, than that's not the doctor's fault!
I still recall with horror the trick I did in July of 1997: The female taxi driver that transported me from the hospital in Tallahassee, FL (Tallahassee Memorial?) to my temporary home with Talmadge Gilliard (Ponce de Leon Drive) waivered the fare in exchanged for the prescription pain-killers I had been given after my hemorrhoidectomy! Not that I'm “Mr. Clean” legally, but foster drug abuse!
About four-five weeks ago, I came upon a pair of slip-on house shoes in the Family Room. I thought the pair belonged to Kayla: The child is growing and most of the family members she has to “draw” on have big feet! However, I was wrong: The shoes belong to Joyce!
Maybe “opposite attrack” should be the policy! Then maybe marriage won't be used to re-inforce one's self-low! Marriage may bring what a person's life needs to be whole!

(acerca de 2:56 P.M.) Religion is, indeed, the opiate of the people! The vast majority of society craves a drug: If not Valium, then pain killers! And doctors are convenient scapegoats for the responsibility!
To avoid Valium and/or painkillers - mainly because their supply is not guaranteed - most people “cope out” and use the ersatz atterna__ drug of organized religion. A “safe” drug, you say? Tell that to the victims of September 11, 2001! Expl___ how religion is a safe drug to those doctors, nurses, and patients at abortion clinics that religiously-”high” physically attack!
Tell the African American lynched by the Ku Klux Klan that religion produces a non-violent “stone”!

(acerca de 3:24 P.M.) Did I ever tell you how Leslie was hanging on Bill when they brought the new car over here to “show off”? It was as if she was “paying” him (Bill) with the promise of sex! And that makes her a prostitute!
Maybe I was offended because Leslie is my niece! Who wants his niece to carry out a quid pro quo for a material possession?
The sky remains covered from our scrutiny! The low-70⁰'s (F) has yet to bring forth Rain, but that is really the day's fault more than the low-70⁰!
I remember thinking yesterday afternoon as I was receiving a localized anesethesia in my lower right gum - I move my feet up and down rapidly to “divert” the pain! Not much do I point-and-flex my feet; just enough to “cover up” the needle prick! - that I would like to know the rate of increase of the heart beat occurs when a person is sitting in a dental chair! I don't know of anybody who doesn't “fear” dental work: Even dentists!
The Tower of Babel: Did the same thing happen to it that happened to the World Trade Center Towers? In the case of the latter, was technology too threatening to “God”?

(acerca de 5:10 P.M.) Does a basketball player “shoot” the ball directly, or is s/he really only keeping Gravity at bay while the ball makes a run for the net?
I don't know how to articulate the “theory” in any other way! Obviously I don't know enough about physics to “discuss” this example of an attempt to overcome Gravity. I chose a basketball player, but the “theory” came to me while I was juggling, when I was trying to figure out if juggling is throwing three or more objects in the air, or is it a beating back of Gravity, that does everything possible to remove my hand!
Could it be that I have just “defined” basketball-shooting, baseball-throwing, football-lobbing, etc? One must overcome an equal amount of Gravity to get an object in the air at a specific height!
Kayla was taken home around 3:23 this afternoon. While riding uninvited with David to KFC (yesterday evening - I could have sworn he asked me to accompany him - he joked about Leslie and Bill, who we meet even before we got off of Princeton Drive, not coming for Kayla until Monday. This morning I told David he may have been correct!
Two or three days ago I stated to David the fact that the student is held hostage to a high G.P.A. and good performance in graduate school, yet the professors can be inefficient and sloppy as s/he wants! It is this inefficient and sloppy instruction that is usually responsible for the G.P.A.: Somehow the teaching style and your learning style just can't get together! But that should have no bearing on one's intellectual status!

(acerca de 6:02 P.M.) As I thought it likely, the check from the American Humanist Association came back to me: I had sent it to Avenue “P” instead of the correct Avenue “T” in Washington, D.C.
Actually, the check came back at just the right time: I will be worked on by Dr. Sligh before Month X's payday, and the $19.95 is needed! I can resubmit to the AHA in November! That is, if at all: I am not impressed with the quality of humanism from the American Humanist Association! I get the impression it is a club for the pretensious yuppie and “arm-chair” scholar! And that is not what the humanities is (are?), is it? If so then I have two degrees in a field that doesn't suit me!
Although maybe it is my only job to repair the damage to the humanities that organizations such as the AHA are doing!
It is not always wise to pay attention to one's elders! What if they are not right or intentionally try to lead one astray? My clown character was a satire on the “wise old man”: I am only now understanding what I was doing, the significant of Luigi. If I had had a better grasp of what I meant, I would have played Luigi much better than I did! And my career would have lasted much longer than it did!

(12th, About 9:17 A.M.) There is a poster in Dr. Sligh's office: ”It's nice to be Queen!”. I noticed the poster on the morning of September 26, 2003.
Dr. Sligh is an all-female establishment, the working environment for which males had to endure legal action.
Women - rightly so - use to whine about being treated as second-class citizens. So what do women like Christa Slightly do? Try to make men second-class citizens! This is the best they (women like Dr. Sligh) can offer Women's Lib! Isn't this pathdic?
“S/he can afford to live in poverty!” It's all too common for people with way too time and money on their hands to develop a “concern” for the Homeless! Such a hobby allows them to brag. Some go as far as assuming the role of homelessness, as if homelessness is just not having a home! Homelessness is not having hope, not having a home to go to! The play acting homeless can always go back to her/his high-level existence.
The homeless are not “projects,” not a “lab” for organized religion! The homeless must be allowed to solve homelessness! This paternalistic atitude by the hobbyist and by organized religion are the problem, not the solution: They keep homelessness in place so as to have a hobby and/or a project!
There was a sign at the 50-yard line of my life telling people (Steve and Mary Holt, etc), “This is as far as you go!”! Or “Private Property.” Or . . .

(acerca de 10:32 A.M.) One thing that is the determining factor among historical periods is the rate of change: Whether it occurs slowly, over a long, drawn out time, or happening at a “drop of a hat”! It seems the more things can change the quicker they will change, as if a Great Someone wants every change to have a chance before the end of time! Yes, that means that “God” didn't have a plan when S/He created everything: S/He is trying this and if it doesn't work, tries that, hoping that eventually S/He will come up with something that works! So far S/He hasn't found it!
I didn't mean to “go off on a tangent”! What I initially had in mind to write was the noticable change in network television since 2000, when I started pay attention to such things! I recall a program of a family traveling around the country in a silver “streamline” trailer, pulled behind their car. The show wasn't behind the times technically: The theme was “out-of-date.” The same can be said of DIAGNOSIS MURDER.
Programming like the above should be, and is, relegated to cable or a “minor” network!
There is a television program, DR, QUINN, MEDICINE WOMAN that was first-run earlier in this century. The lead character in the western, Dr. MiCayla (?) Quinn (played by Jane Seymour), had adopted her sister's children, after the sister had been killed (or maybe the woman was not a blood sister!). For some reason the “blood uncle,” a citizen of the town (played by Orson Bean) was not given custody.
Although the show is only fiction, it may be based on some reality. What was the status of children at that time (mid- and late-19th century?
Upon the pre-mature death of Sacagawea, William Clark assumed custody of the former's children (Lewis and Clark expedition). What was the problem with the children's father, Toussaint Charbonneau?
Women may have been property of their husbands, but children were the possessions of the mother, the father apparently not having a say in the children's lives! That has somehow been forgotten in Women's Lib!

(acerca de 11:49 A.M.) ON THE WATERFRONT has now assume a belated place in my life, curtesey of Turner Classic Movies: From 7-9:00 yesterday evening, I was a student of film history, the movie I should have studied during the Film History course at the University of Alabama in the early-1970's! No matter: I watched it thirty years later! Why should film history be any different?
The scene that stands out in my mind is when Terry Malloy (Marlon Brando) is explaining to his love interest (Eva Marie Saint) his part in the murder of his brother “Joe Doyd”: The steam whistle of a shipi s sounding, overpowering the dialogue. All the viewer can see are the lips of the two characters moving, and their reactions, The confrontation is shown in individual close-up: First medium, then from slightly below, then extreme close-ups. It is secondary movement that has been incorporated into film vocabulary a lot since the mid-1950's production of ON THE WATERFRONT. But does that secondary movement mean anything to this particular movie or was it included in WATERFRONT for the future?


Although the show is only fiction, it may be based on some reality. What was the status of children at that time (mid- and late-19th century?
Upon the pre-mature death of Sacagawea, William Clark assumed custody of the former's children (Lewis and Clark expedition). What was the problem with the children's father, Toussaint Charbonneau?
Women may have been property of their husbands, but children were the possessions of the mother, the father apparently not having a say in the children's lives! That has somehow been forgotten in Women's Lib!

(acerca de 11:49 A.M.) ON THE WATERFRONT has now assume a belated place in my life, curtesey of Turner Classic Movies: From 7-9:00 yesterday evening, I was a student of film history, the movie I should have studied during the Film History course at the University of Alabama in the early-1970's! No matter: I watched it thirty years later! Why should film history be any different?
The scene that stands out in my mind is when Terry Malloy (Marlon Brando) is explaining to his love interest (Eva Marie Saint) his part in the murder of his brother “Joe Doyd”: The steam whistle of a shipi s sounding, overpowering the dialogue. All the viewer can see are the lips of the two characters moving, and their reactions, The confrontation is shown in individual close-up: First medium, then from slightly below, then extreme close-ups. It is secondary movement that has been incorporated into film vocabulary a lot since the mid-1950's production of ON THE WATERFRONT. But does that secondary movement mean anything to this particular movie or was it included in WATERFRONT for the future?
Marlon Brando's eyes are too heavily made-up! For a dramatic reason, or simply because Brando has always taken himself too seriously?
I do thank Ted Turner - who was Humanist of the Year a long time ago - for showing the movie without commercial interruption!
When Kayla was here Friday evening, the animated film, JUNGLE BOOK I I, was “shown” via video. As with most of Disney stuff nowadays, the movie is more popular among the frustrated film makers and “technophobes” than the theoricial audience: Children. But why does Disney mind: Money's money!

(acerca de 12:26 P.M.) Speaking of an anti-climax! In any other circumstances THE DISTRICT (9-10:00 P.M.,C.B.S.) is a well-made program! But not after watching a film classic like ON THE WATERFRONT! Although it isn't fair to compare the television program with one of the better movies ever made! THE DISTRICT is what it is, and doesn't try to be anything else: Great “art” or anything! It is best if one watches THE DISTRICT without having viewed a film making masterpiece!
On C.S.I.: MIAMI (C.B.S.) a few weeks ago, “Horatio,” the lead character, was thinking back to a case of child molestation and murder. The “flash back” featured a 2-3 year-old female child, cute as can be, all smiles and innocence! The “perp” used the excuse, “But she flirted with me!”. A 2-year old? What an inference, not an implication!
On the afternoon of September 17, 2003, Kayla was visiting. She had crawled on the floor underneath the kitchen table, dirtying her hands. Then she touched food without cleaning her hands. I was shocked that she was allowed to do such a thing, or that she “willingly” would do something like that!

(acerca de 4:04 P.M. Ursula Morgan - my student teaching supervisor at Tallahassee Community College in the Winter/Spring of 1999: This is for you, Bitch! Remember the smart-ass way in which you declared that drama is literature? It was at the podium of the afternoon class (Humanities II). For your information, Whore, a play as it exist on the printed page is, indeed, literature! But on the stage, a play is drama, is theatre! I bet you didn't know that, and that is why you were so bellagent that day!
Your kind make a mockery of teaching!
The upper-70⁰'s (F) may be accepted by the relocated flowers! Now that only the roots are in the grounds, there is no more need to be concerned about the load above ground! Take Your time, Flowers! Even if You hide in the soil to avoid the cool/cold air, I hope to see You next Spring! It is my wish that You don't see me at CACC next Spring, but I may not be “transplanted” as You have been!
The sky has broken up the one single cloud of last week: Phoebus has been getting “through” on occasion.
But Rain hasn't!
Deah and I have resumed walking in the wooded area at the end (?) of Princeton Drive. A female that resides in the house that attempted to claim it made a hand sign as she was driving away: Either the second digit of the left hand, or a wave. Deah and I were about twenty-five feet “down” the trail when the female pulled from the drive way, so I didn't see the hand clearly. But I don't care whatever the signal was!
Within the past two days, David and I discussed the fact that, in order to get things done, one can't be “nice.” According to him, one of his friends accused him of being too “nice”! I told him what Geary Byrd had told me once: That one must be an “asshole” in order to run a business like Carson and Barnes Circus!
One of the teaching assistants of the journalism program at the University of Mississippi had no idea what was “holding” things up as far as the selection committee is concerned! But this is how graduate school is: All over, not just at F.S.U. or Ole Miss! The deadline for applicants to have material in - October 1 or 2 - was only a legal designation, I told David. As frustrating as it is,all he can do is wait and maybe the program will do something soon!
Unless it has already made the selection, which could very well be the case!
The University of Mississippi is the Rebels. Unfortunately, it associated the name “Rebels” with a Confederate soldier. However, “Rebels” are other things that don't suggest the apartheid days of slavery and the Civil War. The school is currently trying to come up with a non-Confederate soldier to be the visual emblem of the “Rebels”! It is long overdue: Ole Miss should have taken care of this thirty years ago!

(13th, About 5:5_ A.M.) There is a yard sign in the front yard of the Coxes yard (on Princeton Drive). It is advertising the First United Methodist Church: Jesus and Me (JAM). There seems to be a “soul-saving” war going on between the Calvary Baptist (“You Have a Purpose!”) and the Methodist! You know, like McDonald's and Burger King have a Hamburger war!
Didn't I tell you that organized religion is a business? Those signs are more increasing the “offering” at each church than there are about “saving souls”!
I believe it was Kenny, the elephant handler on Carson and Barnes Circus in the late-1980's, that argued with me over the geographical label “Orient”: I insisted that “Orient” included India! Kenny disagreed, citing the stereotypical definition of “Orient.” But come to find out, Iraq is considered the Orient: All non-Western - politically as well as geographically - nations are the “Orient,” and that Includes Israel!
When I think about what I did: It was 1994 in Louisville, KY. I was in jail. I had no friends that could bail me out for fifty dollars. So you know what I did? I asked a male that was scheduled for release if he would go across the street and, using my ATM card, withdraw the $50, taking out some money for himself! The young male turned me down! I must, though, that it sounded like a set-up! But imagine if he had acted on my request! I would never had seen my ATM card any more! And all my money would have been taken!
Desperate measures result from desperation!

(acerca de 6:33 A.M.) September 23, 2003: Something motivated me to bring up “profit more important than life” during an early morning ride to work! As I may have have already told you, Joyce's ethics class had discussed such an issue. Joyce then told me about a young female student that based her lifestyle on the television “reality” program THE BACHELOR. She is not the only one: These people are to be pitied rather than scorned!
A person is unique for her/his faults, not by her/his accomplishments. “Faults,” in this case, are referring to mistakes. I recall discussing live albums versus studio albums of musicians and vocalists with an employee of the University of Alabama in 1995, out behind the Center for Public Television!

(acerca de 12:33 P.M.) I was pausing from juggling clubs. He was on the small back “porch” of a building that was somehow associated with CPT. I forgotten if he was for or against a recorded live concert. But I do remember that he made the remark that he would love to hear a live concert recording of Mozart or Beethoven!
It was a bright, warm day when the above conversation took place.
Once again, THE MCLAUGHLIN GROUP (3-3:25 P.M., P.B.S.) was a highlight of my Sunday. And you know what? I have come to the conclusion that the White House is becoming more directly involved via the National Security Council in order that Carl Rove, the president's political advisor, can manipulate events more! I really don't think the administration gives a “rat's ass” if anybody doesn't like the way post-Saddam Iraq is being handle or not!
So much for democracy! If it's any consultation, George W. Bush, you are not the first president to turn your back on democracy! Why Teddy Roosevelt supposively busted monopolies, but was “advised” by J.P. Morgan, or some major tycoon!
It's not only Republicans that must be watched: I'm sure even Jimmy Carter had an anti-American administration!
No wonder people don't vote: Not out of apathy, but out of a realization that Washington is the problem, not the solution!
There is no place on earth that is uninhabited! Maybe human kind doesn't dwell in a place like the Sahara Desert, but who said that only humans count? As SAHARA (7-9:00 P.M., P.B.S.) made clear, there are tribes and communities other than Homo Sapiens! At least this is what the nature show means to me. But I have been wrong before!
Did what Anita Matlow say to Joyce via the telephone that evening in 199_ - Anita dared me to get her in touch with Joyce - “inspire” Joyce to contact Steve Holt and Voc Rehab? Although I now have good reason to think that Steve Holt only visited in hopes of getting me to return to the First United Methodist Church, as a favor to his father! As for Voc Rehab? Joyce admitted that she did. Out of sisterly care? Perhaps! Although I suspect it was from a need to control!


So much for democracy! If it's any consultation, George W. Bush, you are not the first president to turn your back on democracy! Why Teddy Roosevelt supposively busted monopolies, but was “advised” by J.P. Morgan, or some major tycoon!
It's not only Republicans that must be watched: I'm sure even Jimmy Carter had an anti-American administration!
No wonder people don't vote: Not out of apathy, but out of a realization that Washington is the problem, not the solution!
There is no place on earth that is uninhabited! Maybe human kind doesn't dwell in a place like the Sahara Desert, but who said that only humans count? As SAHARA (7-9:00 P.M., P.B.S.) made clear, there are tribes and communities other than Homo Sapiens! At least this is what the nature show means to me. But I have been wrong before!
Did what Anita Matlow say to Joyce via the telephone that evening in 199_ - Anita dared me to get her in touch with Joyce - “inspire” Joyce to contact Steve Holt and Voc Rehab? Although I now have good reason to think that Steve Holt only visited in hopes of getting me to return to the First United Methodist Church, as a favor to his father! As for Voc Rehab? Joyce admitted that she did. Out of sisterly care? Perhaps! Although I suspect it was from a need to control!

(acerca de 3:40 P.M.) Gorman Houston, the senior member of the Alabama Supreme Court, is the acting chief justice while Roy Moore is on “vacation.” Houston and the other seven justices received death threats from people who identified themselves as “Christians”!
I ask you, how can a person that insist on “Thou shalt not kill” and the other nine commandments issue death threats?
Or are the threaters only using Christianity as a cover for illegal behavior?
Then why is it so hard to understand how a person like Mohammed Ata (of the 9/11 terrorist) can misuse Islam?
A gorgerous day: Low-80⁰'s (F). Lots of Shine. A great day to be a flower!
Speaking of which: Milt told me that Ronnie told him that any unplanted flowers will be resold or planted else where on campus. In the past, Ronnie has “ordered” me to fill in the spaces with the extra flowers.
Upon hearing this, Joyce later told me in the car that Milt probably want them for himself! That makes sense: Why else would he trouble himself with watering the flowers as they “sat” in their temporary flower pots?
Ronnie had the flowers planted about six inches apart. The inmates used broken sticks to calibrate the half-foot. The method being used is a slow process, and needless: If one makes a “grill” of string, three inches between the “horizontal” and “vertical” (3 square inches), then all one needs to do is plant the first and every other intersection, alternated by the second and every other intersection (1, 3, 5, . . . , then 2, 4, 6 . . . , then 1,3, 5 . . . , and so on). It would save a lot of time this way! And there would be no problem of dissimilar flower beds! Joyce pointed out this morning that the two flower beds in front of the “secondary” entrance to the administration building do not “match”!
And too, as Milt, Joyce, and I agreed, once the flowers reach maximum height, no one will be able to tell the attempted mathematical precision of the “ranks”!
What do you bet that Ronnie will want the extra flowers “crowded” in the beds? Milt said he (Ronnie) doesn't want anymore than what the inmates planted, but that may just be Milt's mis-interpretation! Or setting me up for the scram he has planned!
Milt also stated to me that Ronnie will “ordered” any out-of-line flower re-planted!
People use, “I'm not perfect!” as an excuse for their incompetency! The only reason Jesus is creditted with being perfect is because a standard must be established! That is, if “perfect” was used correctly!
September 23, 2003: Had diarrhea.

(acerca de 7:27 P.M.) Act 1 of “Our Town”: The “Stage Manager” points out that “Babylon once had two million people in it, and all we know about 'em . . . contracts for the sale of slaves.” Is this what Thornton Wilder was getting at when he wrote “Our Town”: That what is going on, on the stage could as easily be 1901 B.C.E. as the 1901 C.E. that it is!
David received his acceptance to graduate school this afternoon. Now he must make arrangements to pay for it!
Act IV, s. 3, of “Women Beware Women”: Privileged temple - Body while alive, sanctuary.

(14th, About 5:53 A.M) Atheists are closer to “God” than are the most devout theists! Whenever I “hear” of a flagrant foul committed by a member of organized religion and David said something like “it's surprising that s/he is a church member!”; I think to myself - and sometimes out loud - that, no, it is expected behavior from a part of the problem in society! It is usually due to organized religion that motivates “bad” actions!
My “association” with Steve and Mary Holt has been haunting me of late: I must have been in terrible shape to have been involved with the likes of these two people! The reason I could never be “friends” with them again: Steve needed me so that he could by-pass an inferiority complex, low self-esteem. Whenever I displayed “signs” of “brilliance,” Steve would become nasty and defensive! It no doubt “held me back”! He would really “rebel” at my “brilliance” at present!
Rain creeped into town under the cover of darkness yesterday evening! I was only aware of this after the fact: When I took out for a walk around 9:40!

(acerca de 6:37 A.M.) Yesterday evening David was telling us about a male student who had a broke leg: The student was headed to the bathroom and another male student “volunteered” to go with him, to carry h__ books, the second guy stated. It was apparently during classes: For upon David telling the second male that the first male didn't need anybody to “hold it,” the other students snickered.
David told us, though, that he never said what “it” was! It could have been his arm: Although we all know “it” didn't refer to the first male's arm!
Doctors at the Children's Hospital in Dallas, TX, separated conjoined twins at the head (top). I think this is great technology! Human cloning is also great technology! But great technology is “playing God”!

(acerca de 12:53 P.M.) Hey, I just now thought of something! You know how Mark Twain's THE ADVENTURES OF HUCKLEBERRY FINN is “famous” for humanizing an African American (“Jim”)? I wonder: Did Mark Twain (Samuel Clemens) write the novel in answer to the Black-face Minstrel and other theatrical venues that made the Black Person lower than a “snake's belly”? Interesting theory, one that I should investigate more!
The truth of the matter is that Joyce and I were “discussing” Cindy (Veazy) Strange and the literature course that Joyce is “taking” under Ms. Strange's leadership, on the way home from CACC a little after noon. Joyce was “complaining” about having to read Ralph Waldo Emerson. Cindy made the comment that “finally, the class was studying real literature” or some such nonsense! Emerson wrote non-fiction essays.
Doctors at the Children's Hospital in Dallas, TX, separated conjoined twins at the head (top). I think this is great technology! Human cloning is also great technology! But great technology is “playing God”!

(acerca de 12:53 P.M.) Hey, I just now thought of something! You know how Mark Twain's THE ADVENTURES OF HUCKLEBERRY FINN is “famous” for humanizing an African American (“Jim”)? I wonder: Did Mark Twain (Samuel Clemens) write the novel in answer to the Black-face Minstrel and other theatrical venues that made the Black Person lower than a “snake's belly”? Interesting theory, one that I should investigate more!
The truth of the matter is that Joyce and I were “discussing” Cindy (Veazy) Strange and the literature course that Joyce is “taking” under Ms. Strange's leadership, on the way home from CACC a little after noon. Joyce was “complaining” about having to read Ralph Waldo Emerson. Cindy made the comment that “finally, the class was studying real literature” or some such nonsense! Emerson wrote non-fiction essays.
Ms. Strange is not a fan of Washington Irving! Which is surprising: His “Knickerbocker's History of New York” is a partial satire on Homer's “The Iliad.” And Mark Twain, another author she can take or leave, is much more than a comic writer: In addition to the social comment of “Huckleberry Finn,” there's “Innocents Abroad” (which I confuse for “A Tramp Abroad”), which contains a “critic” of the supposive high-cultural Europe and Renaissance.
According to Joyce, Cindy Strange's favorite author is Edgar Allen Poe. A good choice: Some scholars claim that he “invented” the short story.
Thoreau did a lot of “stuff” for Emerson, I “explained to Joyce. Emerson was a minister, I told Joyce.
Emerson penned some essay stating that poetry is the highest form of literature. Isn't that what Percy B. Shelly declared in “In Defense of Poetry”?

(acerca de 3:43 P.M.) The vast majority of people only know ON THE WATERFRONT from the famous, oft-quoted line, “I could have been a contender!” that Marlon Brando's character, “Terry Malloy,” recites. Taken out of context, one gets the impression that “Terry” is whinning about having to give up boxing: That this line establishes “Terry” as a bitter young man.
But only if one watches the entire film does the significance of “I could have been a contender!” become clear: First of all, “Terry” becomes a contender by testifying against the crime boss (Lee J. Cobb) that controls the docks. The line is spoken to “Terry's” brother “Charley” (Rod Steiger) in the back seat of a car, just before “Charley” moves to kill his brother. “Terry” is complaining about the manipulation by the mob of a fight he had, in which he took a “dive” as ordered.
The line doesn't inform the character as such, only the action taken by Terry in the end. It is, in essence, one of four “pushes” by the mob, the other three being the murder of “Joe Doy_” (?), someone else, and eventually Charley (after the famous line is spoken).
As I have said many times, de-construction is good only after seeing a play or movie in its entirety, or reading a book from the first page to the last page. De-construction is a study tool, a learning aid. If used without a total immersion into the film, play, or book, problems are very likely to occur! Such is the case with de-constructing the bible or the Koran: The Ten Commandments should not be separated from the journey of former slaves which is known as the exodus! A non-Islamic ve_se is no justification for anti-Americanism, and is not an excuse for terrorism!
So please, watch your de-construction! Pretty please! It is much better to be ignorant of something than to know it only through de-construction!
This wind reminds me of the desert! It also reminds me of the game show LET'S MAKE A DEAL!: Wind has had Its Hand up all day, in hopes of attracking the attention of the host, in this case Rain! But so far Rain hasn't picked the “contestant”! Earlier today the sky was curtained off, but somebody chosed Curtain #2, revealing Phoebus hard at work.
Rain must have been behind Curtain #1 or Curtain #3!
That “somebody” was the mid-70⁰'s (F). I have no idea if They are disappointed or not with Their prize!

(acerca de 6:2_ P.M.) With my hearing aid “on the blink,” I never know when Kayla is in the house unless she knocks on my door and/or I am forewarned. I happened upon her yesterday around 5:00 in the Family Room.
Leslie and Bill came for her around 7:15, and I thought Kayla had been taken home hurriedly, without good-by hugs that usually occur. So I retired to my room for reading and writing.
Around 7:40, I decided to prepare my soft drink bottle for the next day. To my surprise, Leslie and Kayla were in the Family Room! Apparently Bill was the one that had left earlier!
Leslie and Kayla left for real around 7:50. And this time Kayla handed out hugs and kisses!
I was then ready for KEN BURNS' AMERICAN STORIES as it presented Part One of “The West” (8-9:23 P.M., P.B.S.). I got to thinking someone like Coronado conquered a society, occupied it, and force it to accept Christianity, insisting that its religion was “godless” and “violent” (what irony!). Damn, if it doesn't sound what's happening in Iraq! By the time it's over, Iraq will be forced-fed Christianity as if Christianity is the “cure-all” for the world's problems! We know differently, don't we?
On days like this, it's hard to believe that I am subjected to “boring” periods! I have so much to read and write! My music study is being neglected! I don't have time for You, Death! Why don't You come back later: I'll see if I can fit You in!

(acerca de 6:56 P.M.) This is a Special Report: Leaves have taken over the area! Under Cover of Wind, leaves have surrounded each house! They (leaves) are everywhere!
Working more than ninteen hours a week may have “blinded” me to what is going on in the bookstore, not only with Mandy Rollins, but with Hazel!
The August 21, 2003, edition of THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER inspired this thought: Technology is only a matter of piling on simple things. The more “simple things,” the more than can go wrong.
In the same way, the more fighting men and women in Iraq, the greater the chance of death!
Sunday was Columbus Day, although I doubt if the American Indian Community recognized it! How dare the European-Americans claim that Columbus discovered America! Who do you think saw the event? CNN? (continued)




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