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2017-12-20 11:34:39 (UTC)

Hot Mess at One O'clock

" Well , here's another nice mess you've gotten me into " Laurel & Hardy


Actually it only feels like a hot mess. I think, in actuality, it is merely a semblance of a hot mess. I find I am not emotionally into it. On the surface, things are not going well. First Love ghosted, I think. New Guy ghosted, I think. There are some tangles of money and bills which are always around this time of the year when the holiday eats up your time and recalling your to do list is like the last thing you care to do. Nothing is serious, even the bills seem like they only kinda care if they get paid on time. I would be all eaten up with why on the ghostings but I don't really care either. It's a shoulder shrugger.

I am all ablaze with holiday spirit. My dogs are well behaved despite the fake tree. The holiday party requests are easily met. The presents are already bought and shipped in, just waiting for wrapping which I usually do this week anyhow. I mean I guess I should be stressed, but I am not. It is really nice to just be and let the holiday craziness wash over and around me without breathing it in. Awesome, in fact. May the holidays give you this sense of calm as well, dear readers.

My commercial work is picking up and recently I was actually paid which is both surprising and welcome. The steady drip of work continues and I find it less and less work on my part, more and more like paperwork, just something to put from the inbox to the outbox. I am finding plenty of time for the ones who I want to see and no time for the ones I wish to avoid. That is also quite the blessing. Most of all, I feel so steady, if unimpressed (mostly, how I feel about the ghostings), and it makes the lighter bits of the season merry and bright.




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