AlwaysMarilynDean

To Be Honest With You
2017-12-16 16:23:35 (UTC)

Balance

Fall smester has come to an end and I’ve done a horrible job.... I’ve been on a emotional roller coaster and I can’t get off the truth is I don’t know how to manage school and friendships this whole semester I’ve put them first instead of focusing on the important things... I’ve lost myself trying to save everyone else and it hurts because I feel like I need them to find who I was (if that makes sense). Chris and Eddy changed me some way some how they’ve showed me love they’ve made me feel so important but they’ve also taken it away.... My best friend told me that I care so much about them because they gave me something special but that time has passed and not everyone in my life was permanent and I needed to learn to let go of them I hate that’ she’s right because even though they made me feel alive and I love them so much they also made me sad and lost and I’ve never cried so much over something that I couldn’t control. 2017 is coming to a crazy end and I appreciate all the succes that I have had this year and I’m mad at all my failures I hope 2018 is better I hope I have more adventures with my friends and family... I know I have to say goodbye to the two men that I love more than anyone...

-MD




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