Do Not Disturb

2017-11-07 18:51:01 (UTC)

He's married..... Man

7:12 AM

Mood: Upset

Well this day came of to a rough start. Marquis decided to text me back ans his "wife" ended up reading our messages and how to nit text him back and literally called m3 and shit but hell no wirries he's blocked and he's gone out of my life. She was saying how I better not call him again or she will find me and/or she'll ler my boyfriend know. I don't know what has gotten into me liking a married man thinking he could like me when I have a boyfriend. I didn't honestly know he was married to begin with ( okay that was a lie) but you have a boyfriend that loves you so much. And you love him. You guys have good sex and lots of things in common. Fuck him. Fuck his "wife". Except family. God. Dog. Ect.... That's what my ass get for liking a married guy. But now that he's blocked my focus is on Ray. I really don't see why he married she's right she's crazy as fuck. I don't know whay I got myself into. Even Ray told me not to text him and yet I still did it anyway. I get attached to people to easy ( guys). His dad even likes me as a person and I want it to stay that way. Not getting myself into anymore drama. Perios. I'm just gonna cry my eyes out for the rest of the day. I can't sleep. Too much on my mind from what happened this morning. I just want to give up in all. Is their really something wrong with me? I guess so. Everyone has always asked me that question. I'm glad he's gone. For good. Still feeling like balling ( crying) my eyes out and nothing happened it didn't happen. I guess somethinf is wrong with me. Liking your boyfriend brother while having a boyfriend. Something is seriously wrong with me. I don't even feel the need to write anymore because of it. Now I'm afraid that Ray will find out. I'm afraid to even tell myself that I've liked his nrother. I'm sonstupid. I just wanna go to college and have all of this shit behind me. My life just keeps getting eorse because I keep making it worse.


The Forgotten One