Phillip Wilson

Amazingly, I survived my Life
2011-09-30 00:04:32 (UTC)

2003 REVIEW (PART THIRTY-TWO)

September- Childersburg, AL (continues)

(acerca de 12:36 P.M.) So I'm a hypocrite! Sue me! I avoid watching singers of Christmas songs, yet I sat through CANTORS: A FAITH IN SONG (8-9:30 P.M., P.B.S.) yesterday evening. The fund-raiser is a program of Jewish music, both religious and secular. Religion is religion! Or as the Baha'is say, God is one!” It's not that I reject God: I just don't care whether S/He is around or not!
On the other hand, the Jewish culture - that's what Judaism is, you know, not a “race” as is commonly defined - is somewhat different from the Christian “culture,” of which, for good or bad, I am a product of.
Which is why I made a special effort to watch NEW BEGINNING (9:30-9:53 P.M., P.B.S.), a brief “history” of some of the “holy days,” especially Rosh Hashama and Yom Kippur.
Yom Kip pur', not Kip' pur: I never will forget Jerome (?) or Jerrad Schwartz, the assistant director of KENT STATE pretending to be Jewish and declaring “Yom Kip' pur”! Just because his last name is “Schwartz,” he didn't have to come down to the backwaters of Alabama in August 1980 and try to live the pre-conception!
I told David yesterday evening that Kayla can “sense” when she is being “dumped” over here! This is partially why she mis-behaves like she does!
In “The Inspector Lynley Mysteries,” the love interest of “Tommy Lynley” is a woman name “Helen Chase.” The character is a “profiller” with Scotland Yard. “Helen” rejects Lynley's “pleas” for a long-term relationship. Is “Helen” a profiller for a reason?

(acerca de 1:30 P.M.) I have been thinking of myself from the perspective of 2635 C.E.: I am one of the t_n personalit_, Was there a “me” in 1902? In 1802? In 902? In 802?
People join the military because the job doesn't require self-discipline or a knowledge of “practicing-techniques.” This is why military people have the reputation for being “losers.” But why stop with the military: There is enough “losers” label to go around!
Steve Kilbury is a “bitch” like his mother! He was born out of “wedlock,” so he thought he might as well father a child from the same place (a television skit of long ago, featuring Dean Martin stating that he knew where he was from: wedlock.)

(acerca de 2:41 P.M.) School (not CACC) is not in session Friday or Monday.
The Alabama Speedway in Talladega is holding a major race this weekend.
A connection? I voiced this question to Joyce this morning: She said school was out Monday so that the students won't have to be subjected to the traffic. Sounds reasonable. But is that the only justification for the Monday closing of schools?
A student told David yesterday that he may not at school on Thursday: He and his family are setting up camp at the park by the race track, and will leave early Thursday morning. Hopefully the kid was just talking: Talladega is 20-25 miles from here! There is nothing stopping his parents or siblings from coming for him Thursday afternoon! Or one of his “friends” could drive him “up there”!
Surely his parents won't “apply” for an excused absents just for racing!
Fall showed Summer out of the eg___, since It (Summer) was crying so much. A beautiful start for Autumn 2003: But isn't the first day of each of the four seasons beautiful? Let's see how the fortieth day is!
The lower-80º's (F), gorgeous Sun! Oh how great if I could repeat that phrase for many, many days!
Leslie “took” via automobile granny to the doctor in connection to yesterday evening's fall. I “took” via my hands the clubs to the backyard (Deah also went).
If anybody ever tells “you” that ball-juggling and club-juggling are the same, that person knows nothing about juggling! I have been specializing in threel-ball for so long, it was awhile before my wrists were activated! Of course they play an important role in ball-juggling, but not even a third of what they must do when clubs are substituted for balls! Unless one is executing “floaters,” it is up to the wrists to power the flip: A360º flip requires a good bit of wrist action!
Well, once the wrists return to active duty, the “start” needed fixing: To an extent, that first club determines how the display will go. Sort of like “follow the leader”!
The “V” that is the track, so to speak, for the clubs must be an upper case “V,” and not a lower-case “v.” In other words, toss the clubs as high as eye-level and a few inches beyond each shoulder.
Even though I am focussing on 3-ball, a periodic review of 3-club should be done. This is how it should be with everybody that juggles! It is a reminder of the math behind proper juggling!
Cologn and perfume hide body order. Imagine how it was before they were “invented”! What a sickening thought!

(acerca de 3:42 P.M.) David “lecture notes” were re-arranged to test the students. All one had to was to study her/his notes to make an “A.” But many made “F”'s! Apparently those students didn't listen in class or didn't study their notes, or both.
Due to popular demand, David will give an”extra-point” test Thursday. But how many extra points? A fellow teacher and his former teacher suggested just one point.
This is when the male student informed David of the possible Thursday absence: When David announced the “extra-point” test.
Relive the past to try and predict the future; Game Show Network: pre-computers, pre-cell phones, etc. Surely there's something missing from this sentence!

(acerca de 6:40 P.M.) “The sabbeth was made for man; man was not made for the sabbeth!” Was this something that Irving Stern, the late director of the Jewish Community Center Players in Birmingham, AL, or is it a line from the musical “Fiddler on the Roof,” which the Players did in 1971, and in which I was involved?
I use to be perplexed by the term “religious humanism.” As far as I was concerned, the two words were diametrically opposed to each other!
But now I “see” that the above statement about man (generic) and the sabbeth is represented of religious humanism! It isn't that I am coming to know what I didn't know: It is that I am coming to know what I have known for a long time!
When it was time for me to leave work, I met Joyce in her office. As we were walking down the hall to the car, Joyce told me that Ronnie Harkins had.asked about Steve Holt (Ronnie and Steve both graduated in 1967 from high school). Joyce told Ronnie that Steve had worked at the Birmingham Zoo, but in what capacity, she didn't know (a "shit-shoveler," as Steve told me).
Ronnie thought Steve would be something like a rocket scientist.
Joyce told Ronnie that Steve's son, Jesse, was in the marines. When I commented, “To get away from Steve!”, Joyce sense something was wrong and changed the subject.
Maybe Steve's problem relates to unfulfilled potential, as we all feel! Or maybe Ronnie was just being his usual patronizing self, and the so-called “unfulfilled potential,” which was never there in the first place, has nothing to do with the way Steve is!
But Ronnie's flirting with the past is a cause for concern! But for me, you understand!
Ronnie knows that Steve was involved with psychology. I stated to Joyce his association with mental health and drug counseling.
Surely Ronnie wasn't serious when he said that he would like to have Steve's telephone number!

(24th, About 5:51 A.M.) One would think that I would be conditioned to a bad diet by now! I mean, in the four years plus that I have been “imprisoned” here in Childersburg, the days of 2000 calories are rare and far between!
On top of this (or on bottom of this) I am discharging red with each bowel movement. It got so bad yesterday that blood dripped from my rectum on my way from the toilet to the shower!
Is there a connection between “semi-starvation” and dysfunctional hemorrhoids? I think so. But hemorrhoids won't have a chance as long as I live here!
While it was raining Monday morning, I sat on the left front wheel attached to a tractor that was parked in a covered “carport.” Retrieving a pack of cigarettes from the near-by bus (the one that he drives to bring the inmates to work each morning and take them “home” in the afternoon), Milt stopped in to see me. We got to talking about one thing and another, until finally we “discussed” the fact that Electronics use to include Television Repair, which is why there are “former” televisions in storage in Building “H.” I told Milt that modern television sets are crystals (liquid), and require almost chemical engineers to repair them, instead of electricians.
Just before we parted yesterday morning to go to our respective work areas, I stated to Joyce that television documentaries should be used as secondary sources, not primary sources. She looked at me in amazement, as if wondering how I new such a thing!

(acerca de _:28 A.M.) Remember December 24, 2002? Well, you should! It's when I wrote down these words: “The last great adventure is death: I long for it!” This line is spoken on the television series HAWAI'I 5-0 by Ed Flanders (? a doctor on ST. ELSEWHERE). The character also articulated that there are two great events in a person's life: Birth and death.
“You” wouldn't think that it would be necessary to “credit” higher education for what it taught me! After all, what else is higher education good for?
In 1970 as a student at the University of Alabama at Birmingham, I took courses at Birmingham-southern College (the more I think about this co-opt, the more I question the practice of a public university-private college partnership, when money exchanges hands;the program was [is?] a way for B-S C. to get its hands on state and federal funds! God Bless America!). It is here that I learned about the play “Rosencrantz and Guilderstern are dead.” Although at the time I had no idea who Rosencrantz and Guilderstern are!

(acerca de 12:41) “Peter” reads from the novel “The Thornbirds” to the unconscious “Guillan” on JUDGING AMY (9-10:00 P.M., C.B.S.). Now I have never read “The Thornbirds,” but I remember hearing about a television mini-series, starring Richard Chamberlain, based on the modern novel, oh, twenty years or so ago. “Peter” makes a Big Deal of “The Thornbirds.” “Guillan” (?) read it on her and Peter's honeymoon.
At the end of the episode, “Guillan” awakens from a coma while “Peter” is reading from “The Thornbirds.” I am unable to tell you the passage, but is “The Thornbirds,” and the quoted passage, of significance? Or is it there only for the purpose of throwing a “wannabe” scholar like me off the track? After all, it is commercial television!
About twenty-five years ago, professional football player Brian Picolo (Chicago Bears?) died of cancer. “Mad” magazine satirized his death by stating that he had a bad case of hemorrhoids.
On SOUTH PARK (8:30-9:00 P.M., Comedy Central) Stan suffers from hemorrhoids. The infection spreads to his lungs and he dies, or nearly so.
It's only a joke, right? Is my returning hemorrhoid problem a precursor to my demise?
Incidentally, my hemorrhoid has most likely been traumatized by wood-chipping: Twisting my body in all sorts of ways laying the wood-chips, transferring them from the gated area to the nursing school parking lot, etc.
I have about “run out” of wood chips! I am “down” to spreading saw dust (from Carpentry) on the flower beds. As “Alice” does, I can “paint the sawdust red”!

(acerca de 2:14 P.M.) I also “remember” watching about thirty-five minutes of THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:25 P.M., P.B.S.) yesterday evening
Automobiles have always been used as weapons: I myself have been the target of “run-downs,” not only by Anita Matlow - in the parking lot of an outdoor shopping complex continuing a grocery store,an income tax business (H & R Block), etc; it was the income tax place where Anita came from in the evening, and tried to run me over as I was walking home (Piney Road) because I wouldn't supply her with more money, or something - but by the “god-fearing American” (I guess). In fact, I may have been the target of one this morning: I had made the trip to Allen's Food Mart in order to buy a $1.39 pack of cigarettes, and on the way back to campus, a car purposely (I guess) didn't yield to me, a pedrastrian. It made me so proud to be an American!
“Am I predictable?”, I asked.
“No, I just know my customers!”, she said.
The female clerk at Allen's Food Mart usually has my cigarettes waiting on me whenever she sees me coming! I just hope I am never with Joyce, David, or Leslie when I enter the store and she is behind the counter!
European Theatre History (1972 or 1973): Brecht (?) and German influence on the American theatre.

(acerca de 3:46 P.M.) “Throughout” the evening I intermittenly watched two programs dealing with the race/culture issue: Alabama Public Television's Crossroads (7-8:00 P.M.), an offering of the ALABAMA EXPERIENCE series; and MATTERS OF RACE (8-10:__ P.M., P.B.S.). As a humanist, I should have watched both programs in their entirety, especially the latter. It's current history we speaking of, for heaven's sake! I promise to do so when the latter is re-broadcast.
A typical Fall day: Cool in the early morning, the mid-80º's (F) in the afternoon. Phoebus is a beauty! This is just what I was hoping from Autumn!
While coming home, I “declared” my disdain for Thomas Jefferson, mainly for his hypocrisy of “all men are created equal” and continuing to own people! He refused to work, so he relied on slaves to keep Moniticello in operation. Only, as I understand, it didn't turn out that way: He died owning thousands!
Joyce told that he wrote an article stating that the male American Indian wasn't sex-driven; that the female American Indian was too busy for children, that they used a plant to abort a fetus. Joyce wondered why such a plant is not available to the public.
Being aware of the way Mr. Jefferson viewed “non-white,” I think one should take what he wrote with a “grain of salt”!
Joyce's ethics class is “arguing” abortion. I told her that there must be a specific thesis or question to argue. Otherwise it is like playing tennis without a ball: Everybody is swinging her/his racket at different times, and for what? Just to be swinging?
Abortion hinges on the status of the fetus or embryo, not so much the mother. It is not a moral issue. If the fetus or embryo is a person, then the 14th amendment applies. Was the slave a person? In the case of rape, which is more important, the mother or the embryo/fetus?
Can a Pro-lifer really murder abortion-providers?
As you can see, abortion is too vast a subject to discuss without breaking it down!
Should men have a say in abortion? Just because a male can't have babies, is his viewpoint automatically invalid? Is it “playing God” to exclude it?
Wow, what a topic!
“Harry Potter” by J.K. Rowling. O'kay, and . . . ?

(acerca de 4:58 P.M.) The Roman poet Virgil guided Dante through Hell and to the top of Mount Purgatory. But he wasn't allowed to cross over to Paradise: He was pre-Christian don't forget! Religious bigotry at its best!
Beatrice escorts Dante in Paradise.
In the same matter, Luigi was my guide during most of my pre-50's. But Luigi was halted at the “border” and prevented from crossing into my post-50's! Luigi served me well.
You know, I used clowning as an excuse not to develop skills! In fact, I avoided self-aggrandisement, erronously thinking that my clowning was so valuable that actually doing things may harm It! Boy, was I stupid! I am paying for that stupidity now!
Did Joyce tell Hazel not to let anybody but me take charge of the boxes (of text books?), as an act of patronization?

(25th, About 5:53 A.M.) What exactly is “pornography”? Is it the bumper sticker on a car park up __ CACC 7-8 months ago that went something like “Which is worse: To screw an intern, or to screw the country”? Of course, Joyce said that was?
What part does low self-esteem play in “pornography”? There's usually other factors behind some one working as a prostitute or starring in a pornographic movie: As Joyce said, what else can “you” do if your parents have thrown you away and you're 14 years old?
Joyce harshly criticized an 18-year old classmate by basing her (the student) life “philosophy” on what she actually believes represents reality: The television program THE BACHELOR!
I stated to Joyce during the Tuesday morning “discussion” that the very nature of television precludes “reality”!
Ethics. Phl 206. How about the premise that Ethics is a waste of a student's time: If s/he is at all interested in tackling such, s/he can do it among fellow students in the snack bar!
Many people wonder how groups of the same religion (Christianity) can be at each other's throats for so long (in reference to the intenicine “wars” in Northern Ireland between Catholics and Protestants). Well, what about the fact that the civil rights movement grew out of the church, as did terrorist groups such as the Ku Klux Klan? Here you have an example of Protestantism waging “war” against itself!
My rejection of a bookstore position when it was offered to me the second time: Was this a “backfire” on Leisa?

(acerca de 11:53 A.M.) Years ago, Louisville, KY, attempted to get rid of all the “porn” shops within its city limits. During one of my visits there in the late-1980's, or maybe when I was living with the Pereles in 1993, Richard - who told me about the “try” in the first place, so if I were you, I wouldn't quote me - and I had a “discussion” concerning this. We both decided that too many of the middle-class, status quo upholders are the core clientele of these sex establishment: They would never allow their “hobby” (actually there raison d'etre for living) to be taken away from them!
If indeed it was true! But considering the source, I have my doubts!
I have an idea! Why not “require” the Ethics class to watch LAW & ORDER (9-10:00 P.M., N.B.C,)? The main reason that the program has survived all these years, and have spun spin-offs, is that the denouement is presented, but the logic of that denouement is left to the audience to decide. For instance, yesterday the episode has a legal aid lawyer choosing prison over revealing the cache of bodies that was shown to him by his client. What is more important, the integrity of the law or freedom? What if everybody uses the legal system only when it is convenient?
On THE WEST WING (8-9:00 P.M., N.B.C.), of which I only saw the second “half,” President Barlette (?) has temporarily relinquished power to the Speaker of the House (what, no vice president?). The Speaker is a Republican. No doubt the episode is showing the contrast between the Democratic Barlette (?) and the Republican acting president, “asking” the question, “Which is more preferable in a national crisis?”: (The president's daughter, Zoé, has been kidnapped by terrorists)!
The acting president (played by John Goodman) calls the terrorists “bastards” and give the order for military action. I do believe the program is trying to tell the viewers something: That a Republican president “shoots first,” tries diplomacy second!
The episode is subtly an anti-Bush episode! I wonder if the Democratic candidates for president realize the free campaign ad they have?
Does THE WEST WING count as political contribution?

(acerca de 1:34 P.M.) Bill Clinton controls the Democratic presidential nominee in 2004;
Al Gore had a “falling out” with Bill Clinton;
Therefore, Al Gore could never be the Democratic nominee for president in 2004!
It's rumored that Hillary Clinton, in preparation for a presidential “run” in 2008, will manipulate events so there will be no Democratic winner in 2004, thus no incumbant to beat in 2008!
That may likely be the reality!
I watched about forty minutes of THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:25 P.M., P.B.S.): Dinner was “ready” in the midst of the program, and I must consume food whenever I can, letting the world be damned!
I did turn over to MATTERS OF RACE on P.B.S. during commercial “breaks”of THE WEST WING and LAW & ORDER. The former program depicts how racism “plays out” in modern, early-21st century society. That I didn't watch more of the series is a crime against humanity! Please give me a second chance, Alabama Public Television!
I told Steve and Mary Holt that I had doubts about zoos: Animals are “forced” to be entertainers. This I told them when Steve was employed by the zoo. Naturally they disagreed with me!

(acerca de 2:54 P.M.) Burt Yarborough had, or is having, his biology (BIO 103) class make cheese. When Joyce announced that yesterday evening (or was it early this morning before leaving for work? David was among the audience.) I stated that it was just like high school.
But the more I thought about it, the more it occurred to me: Is that any different than Jack Shelton leading the attendees at the Wesley Foundation (University of Alabama Methodist Student Center), in the early-1970's, in a game of “Drop the Hankerchief”? It was afternoon, and Jack was trying to illustrate some point, just as Mr. Yarborough is probably demonstrating the action of bacteria.
It was during the “Drop the Hankerchief” game - played “upstairs” - that a female student claimed to be only 13 years of age, due to the fact that most of the males were “hitting” on her!
CACC is a college, such as it is. The Wesley Foundation was (is) for college students. Could it be that children's “games” are more student-friendly than grown-up games? More innocent, definitely!
I was hoping that Fall would ease up on the Heat. But It hasn't so far: The mid-80º's (F) have staked out a claim on the area this afternoon. Phoebus works just as hard as It did the first of Month II, before Autumn took over command!
Rain came close to “bombing,” but Heat's defenses proved too strong for It!
In juggling, do not violate the horizontal (parallel to the ground) plan: What horizontal plan? I am aware of keeping the integrity of the vertical plan. But the “horizontal”? What did I mean when when I made such a note several months back?

(acerca de 4:09 P.M.) All the hope! What went wrong? (self-pity!)
The government uses the film industry as propaganda, yet is critical of other countries for doing so!
I called Al (trumpet-player with Hoxie Bros. Circus, part of 1981) “sible before I knew what “sibling” meant. I was 31 years of age! You think that's bad? Mary Holt didn't even know “maternal” and “paternal”! And she was older than 31 at the time!
“You may wonder from whence cometh my religion iconoclasm! It's a long story! And believe me, you don't want to know!”
More doesn't happen! It's only that I am better able to reveal it to you!

(26th, About 9:03 A.M.) It were diarhea and incontinence that chased away Sleet this morning! I literally pissed an entire jar!
From where came the diarhea: The change in air pressure that took place with Summer voluntarily handed over the year to Autumn? I stated to Joyce yesterday morning that it is as if a barometer is stuck up my ass! The air pressure is why my hemorrhoids “threatened”!
Diarhea is caused by a virus: There is no connection between diarhea and constipation! This is what I told David yesterday as he half-jokingly stated that the cheese in the zitti dish (which I had prepared) will stop me up.
Although it is a nice sensation after evacuating my rectum - I remember reading, years ago, the fact of babies intentionally “holding” their bowel movements because it feels so good when the fecal matter is allowed exit - it is no fun being a prisoner of the toliet!
It angers me when I am included as “one of the boys” and “invited” to work with the inmates. Yet I feel “left out” when I am excluded! For instance, yesterday the inmates put shubbery in the ground by the “Central Alabama Community College” marque in front of the campus on the down-slopping hill by the drainage ditch. But then I remember the nature of my job and I wonder why do I do anything at all!
The shubbery were lying on top of the ground, their roots exposed, back by the “creek” that divides the school of nursing from the rest of the campus. Milt and an inmate “hinted” that the shubbery needs wetting to prevent them from dying.
I remember now: There were two plies of soil - one sand, one top soil - near the entrance of the dump which were placed there yesterday. I asked Milt and the inmate what the soil was for. Both were in the shop, sitting. Milt failed to understand me at first and the white, short-haired inmate had “trouble.” But I finally found out the truth.
Having nothing else to do, I volunteered to hose down the plants. However, I can't free myself of the feeling that I was a victim of patronization by Milt, and what's worse, an inmate! In a sense, the “care” provided by the inmate is great therapy for him, but it may be that the megalomania was what made him an inmate in the first place!

(acerca de 2:40 P.M.) Blood is leaking from my rectum. Only my underwear has been affected, but it's only a matter - maybe the diarhea is at fault! Maybe the diarhea has traumatized the hemorrhoid, rather than the hemorrhoid “___ing” the diarhea! At least I hope the former is the case!
Carol Mosley Braun complained on the Democratic candidate debate (8-10:00 P.M., MSNBC) that she was not questioned as many times as the other male presidential hopefuls. Perhaps she was right: Maybe her femaleness doesn't allow the rest of the world to see the “president” in her.
Or maybe it was only due to her unpresidential campaign!
The MSNBC coverage was tape-delayed: The actual debate took place earlier.
Actually I didn't see the first eight or nine minutes: Kayla didn't leave until about 8:07 yesterday evening, having been brought over here around 4:40 yesterday afternoon.
I also watched about 45 minutes of HARDBALL WITH CHRIS MATHEWS (10-11:OO P.M., MSNBC), which was a discussion of the debate and Democratic strategy.
A female golfer “played” in some major PGA tournament, instead of playing with the girls in a Ladies Professional Golfers Association. The woman didn't fare too “hot.” Because of that, it was assumed that no woman can make it in the PGA. Why hold women to a higher, more stringent standard? Just because that woman played “badly” doesn't mean that all women would! Hell, most men come away from a PGA tournament with a low score! Does that mean that all men should be banned from PGA play?
What if a man played in a major LPGA tournament and sucked? What would it mean? Only that the man was a bad golfer!

(acerca de 3:41 P.M.) The raison d'etre for the trip downtown his morning was to pay half - $200.00 - on the dental crown I will have “installed” in two weeks.
While downtown - I left home around 10:15 A.M. - I decided to visit the computer center at the library. While at the computer center, I asked myself, “Why not?” and “called up” Al Gore. And while I had the “Draft Gore in 2004” web site before me, I thought I may as well join the “movement”: It is about time Al Gore takes his rightful place in the Oval Office!
I was wondering why the world was so bright: I wasn't looking at it through “rose-colored glasses”! I had forgotten my shaded lens, and Phoebus, hearing of my forgetfulness, made sure that I saw the world for what it is!
My eyes were hurting! And by the time that I arrived back “home” around 12:45 P.M., my shirt was a “wet back”: The mid-80º's (F) poured a glass of water down my back without me being aware of it!
A retired professor stated: “Like high school, it was fun, but I wouldn't want to do it [teaching] again!”.
Death, either physical or spiritual. It is almost like the game show JEOPARDY!: I state the answer to a question that I apparently ask myself without telling anybody about it!

(acerca de 4:36 P.M.) Yesterday morning at work I was thinking of a song that applies to the Bush administration, especially it's “policy” (or lack thereof) in Iraq: I forgot what group sings it, but a portion of the song goes “. . .and that's what you say . . Liar! Liar, liar!” I can't believe no one, not even SATURDAY NIGHT LIVE or Bill Maher, has connected the song with the Bush White House! It's as if the song, recorded over thirty years ago, was made for George W. Bush! Of course there was also Ronald Reagan, George W.H. Bush, etc!
As during the presidential candidates debate yesterday, one constantly heard the need for a “government-business partnership.” Hello! This is what is causing the trouble in the first place!
AIthough the government is a business, not “of the people, by the people, and [certainly not] not the people”! It, then, becomes not so much the existence of a government-business partnership - such is a given - but how much of a say does the government have in such a marriage! (40%? 20%? 5%?)
Creativity: Discipline, not “do what you want to doI!

(acerca de 7:27 P.M.) There are those that think the world of George W. Bush, and there are those that lionized Saddam Hussein.
Not only me, but many others “see” George W. Bush as an embarrassment to the United States. In the same token a lot of Iraqis, especially the Shiites and the Kurds, are delighted that the son of a bitch Saddam Hussein has been “relieved” of power. Many Americans, including this writer, wished that the same would happen in this country!
Mussolini had the trains to run on time.
The point that I am trying to make is that every head of state is either praised or vilified, depending on the benefits one receive. So Americans shouldn't be so “encouraged” by all the anti-Saddam rhetoric or shocked by the quality of the former dictator's support.
The speech that George W. Bush made to the United Nations Security Council earlier this week or late last week, “asking” for help in Iraq: He seemed nervous and ill-at-ease throughout the entire presentation! It was as if the lying was too much for him! His thumbs kept drumming on the podium! For the so-called “leader” of the so-called Superpower of the world, Bush sure came across as small and insignificant! Under George W. Bush, the U.S. is being made irelevant!
Two or three Sundays ago, Lawrence on THE MCLAUGHLIN GROUP criticized most environmentalists for being hypocritical, like showing up at a anti-smog conference in a smog producing car.
Nature was not made for the convenience and enjoyment of humankind. As I was telling Karen Laughlin, the Modern Humanities instructor at F.S.U. in 1998, in her temporary office in the Williams-Johnson (?) building, I take issue with the Romantic Period, with its emphasis on the benefits of Nature. Berefitting from Nature can also mean drilling for oil in the Artic National Wildlife Refuge!

(27th, About 8:23 A.M.) Yesterday evening while leading Deah on a walk (around 9:45 P.M.), I had a m__mentarily urge to kick her like a football: What was that about?
Colton Veazey and friend (or family) were engaged in a “game” of throw and catch. One of the players had his back to Princeton Drive, so whenever he didn't make the catch, the ball went into the street. If the ball had hit Deah, it may have done some damage. Was I unconsciously hoping that the ball would strike her? What's wrong with me?
But I want to know why the nearby grown-ups didn't caution the kids about uncaught balls! Did they not realize that I could have taken legal action if Deah or I had been hit?
I was trying to hurry past the “ball par_”: Some things will never change, and discipline of Colton is one thing Jim and/or Wendy Veazey will never do! Even when lack of discipline will be harmful to him or to other people!
And then Jim and/or Wendy will wonder why he (Colton) was knocked on his ass in years to come!
The lock on the gated area where the wood chips are (were) stored was locked when I went to get in last Monday: I have been just “faking” the lock was locked. I went and told Eric at his shop (Building “D”). He was in conversation with Richard. I “explained” about the lock. He hung his head, as in shame.
Has his smart-assness been a chronic case of inferiority complex? Somehow he has learned the truth of my academic qualifications, and he is intimidated! And believe me, envy can cause a lot of problems! A mathematical balance must be maintained at all times in a person's psyche: Whenever a person's inferiority complex, insecurity, low self-esteem, etc, is of so-and-so degree, that an equal and opposite reaction must occur, in accordance with the law of nature. And the problem is more common than “you” think!

(acerca ee 9:30 A.M.) “Do you know where Gale (or Gail) Croley is?”, Joyce said Ronnie asked her one day this week. Gale (Gail) was the valedictorian of his high school graduating class (1967) Was Steve Holt the salutatorian?, Joyce asked. I don't know, but high school is unimportant, as I replied to Joyce as I was getting out of the car at CACC (it was morning).
Kayla went to Gulf Shores, AL, with her parents this weekend. I therefore was able to watch all three of my Friday evening news programs: THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:25 P.M., P.B.S.), WASHINGTON WEEK (7-7:25 P.M., P.B.S.), and NOW WITH BILL MOYERS (8-8:56 P.M., P.BS.). Although I must tell “you” up front that dinner only allowed me to see about half of the NEWSHOUR.
As soon as the United States gets to where it should have been on September 10, 2001, the terrorists will start the process again. So why is the U.S. in such a hurry to get to September 10, 2001? Or doesn't it know about this? Do you want to tell it, or shall I?
The United States of America is a sore loser! It always has been! And not admitting defeat is how “you” lose!
It is the travelling, not the being there! In other words, a person needs movement in her/his life, although the movement doesn't have to be physical: Intellectual momentum is movement, more exhausting, probably, than physical movement.

(acerca de 10:1_ A.M. The United States is stretched so thin militarily what a great time it would be to attack it!
The logic behind states suing tobacco companies was that the state had to suffer the cost in health care and missed work days that comes from the mis-use of smoking. If this be the real logic, then why not sue the automobile companies: Car accidents are much more frequent and costlier than smoking ever can be!
Mike Letcher, of the Center for Public Television, told me one day in 1995, “Use music you want on your own show!” Now what exactly did he mean? Had I been complaining on the music that was incorporated into that elderly Magnolia Springs resident that was the oldest living “Crimson-White” (student newspaper at the University of Alabama) editor? Or was this a suggestion for my show THE FALL? I rather think the statement was for the latter!
“She thinks I still care!”: About a year ago I commented to Joyce that granny became tired whenever Kayla visits for an extended period. From that Joyce felt I really had feelings for my mother! Can't Joyce realize that I have to try anything in coming up with something to talk about with her?

(acerca de 12:08 P.M.) This happened many months ago: Kayla got some candy from one of the refrigerators. When I tried to infer as Kayla ate the candy, granny stated th “Nana” (Joyce) lets her (Kayla) have candy. Later, granny told Joyce what had happened, that Kayla had sneaked the candy out.
The above needs no clarification: I'm sure the reader can interpret the hint, if s/he didn't know already!
Old age “success” means one has overcome the past.
Joyce wonders why ___ (a family name) child is allowed by parents to wear ear rings: David is spoiled like that!

(acerca de 1:37 P.M.) It takes much for a little! And I “ain't” talking about juggling, although it is a well-known fact (belatedly to me) that it requires endless hours for just one minute of “successful” juggling! No, I referring to the “crib courses and all the other courses one “takes” in college that are considered a waste of time!
The 17th of December 2002: Hazel said she did need my services yesterday in the bookstore. We didn't communicate well with each other!
I have only so much time for juggling, writing, and reading, the three focuses of my life!
Several months ago I stated to Joyce that Leslie's atitude had become bad. I forgot why I said it, but I remember being in the car when I articulated the criticism.

(acerca de 3:03 P.M.) Rain has already been here: About two hours ago. Will the wind bring It back? Welcoming Signs have been erected by Overcast.
Is the Heat - the upper-80º's (F) - too threatening? Stay tuned to find out!
When I was employed by Bargain Town - Good Old Days my ass! - I was “checking” somebody out at the register. The person wanted to pay an installment on a lay-away. Only the “deputy” assistant manager, a female African American name Angie, was on duty. I paged her via intercom from the back (warehouse). What if I had done what I wanted to do: Say, “Angie, I need your fuckin' ass up here!” If I had known that a group firing was in the future, I would have!
When Anita Matlow told me that a detective was trying to get in touch with me (1998 or 1999), was she hoping that I was wanted as a law-breaker? Sorry to have disappointed you, Bitch!
_a_ did I “knee” E.J., my room mate and fellow “clown” on Carson and Barnes Circus in 1984, in the back as I was leaving the “trailer” and he was making-up while sitting in the door way or on the steps? Sure E.J. was an asshole, but would an “excuse me” had been too much to have said?
In the 1980's, Carl Sagan represented what was popular: Brains. Dr. Sagan was an astronomer and phystist.

(acerca de 5:00 P.M.) “Are you Thurley's son?”
An elderly male asked me that Thursday morning: He was walking the track and we met on the “hill” of the road that “circles” the campus.
The “gentleman” also asked me if I had retired from shows, or did I quit? I told him something like I wanted to do something else.
Was I working at CACC? I wanted to tell him “No! I just had clippers in my hand for fun!” but I was a nice boy and didn't.
Assistant parent? Not me, as I told Anita Matlow! But most men are!

(28th, About 9:01 A.M.) When I was “discussing” the water needs of the yet-to-be-planted shubbery last Thursday with Milt and an inmate, I asked Milt if there was a water hose in the closet of the car port. He didn't know and asked me if I knew. I said I didn't.
Later, after I had finished watering and had retrieved my soft drink from the refrigerator of the business office suite, I happened to be in the car port. The inmate had found the water hose on the floor of the closet, where I knew all along it was!
I picked up a plastic bag lying outside the closet: It contained my gloves and a pair of clippers, that I have brought from home, as I usually do. However, there were no cigarettes in the bag. Instead, the pack was still in my left pocket where I had “left it from an earlier smoke break.
During the above proceedings, the inmate leaned against a wall (the north, outside wall, nearest the inside of the “shop”) watching me. Was he watching me to make sure I wouldn't steal? Was he watching me in admiration? Was he watching me with sexual interest?
The inmate is a good small-engine mechanic: He had all the weed-eaters “running”!
The presidency (of the United States) is only a business. As do performers, s/he has a large support staff.

(acerca de 9:45 A.M.) Philosophically, STEPHEN KING'S THE NIGHT FLIER (8-10:00 P.M., Scifi) apparently means more than I can figure out: The Night Flier, a vampire, tells the reporter Richard Dees, who is hunting for him (THE NIGHT FLIER) that he (Dees) has been hunting for him (The Night Flier) all his (Dees) life. The Night Flier is a part of Richard Dees.
And then there's the scene in which “Richard” is temporarily relocated to hell when at the Wilmington Airport: He is told by the dead that he has been there before and will be there again.
I am missing something! Help me out here!
Before the horror movie, KEEPING UP APPEARANCES (7-7:30 P.M., P.B.S.) played before my eyes. I fixed myself a milk shake while AS TIME GOES BY (7:30-8:00 P.M., P.B.S.) breached the barriers into my room, a breach that I welcomed after my return to the room with a milk shake.
Why is “Lionel” so critical? A portion of his personality has to do with the fact that he resents the thirty-odd years that “Jean” was out of his life. Just as I resent all the years that practicing know-how was some place else, along with music and just about everything else!
I spent a few minutes listening to Justice Ruth Ginsberg of the United States Supreme Court address some women's group, on C-Span. If on M s. Ginsberg wasn't in her 70's! Her voice and method of speaking is oh, so seductive! I bet no one stood a chance (no other female) with her 30-40 years ago!

(acerca de 11:07 A.M.) On January 28, 1950, I was forced to march, almost non-stop, until I reached the “50”gate. And as soon as I went through the gate, it was slammed close, and no one - Steve and Mary Holt, Doug Green, etc. - could follow. It was as if I had been on a Bataan Death March!
Only there is no torture in here! In fact, compared to what I had to endure along the way, life in the enclosure is paradise! “Heaven”could not be better!
Steve and Mary Holt, Richard and Mary Pereles, etc: It is as if they were wild animals fattening me up before the kill, sort of what Odysseus and his men went through at one point!
Am I dead or still alive?
A few months ago on NOW WITH BILL MOYERS, Mr. Moyers interviewed a holocaust survivor. This man told of talking to his grandsons in Isreal:: The grandson asked him if he believed in “God.” “No,” the grandfather replied. “How could ‘God’ have watched and done nothing?” The grandfather wasn't really a doubter, it turned out, but a dis-appointer!
This show was more than a few months ago: According to my notes, it was on March 22, 2002!

(acerca de 12:11 P.M.) I can't seem to get pass the the fact that the AS TIME GOES BY episode of yesterday evening is more meaningful than people think: No only the part where “Lionel” is regretting all those lost years, but the fact that “Lionel's” father, whom “Jean” meets for the first time, is an adventurous, happy-go-lucky eighty-something year-old gentleman, not at all like the son. The father-son “symbol” is either what the past would do if one will forgive it, or that the future can be had in spite of past! “Lionel's” father (Mr. Hardcastle”) is about to get married. He seems to have broken free of past, unlike his son, who is still at past's mercy!
Although one shouldn't blame “Lionel” too harshly for his continual enslavement to Past: After all “Jean,” the major carrier of his past, has unconsciously tracked him (“Lionel”) down!
Does Lionel marry his past or his future?
All this from a show like AS TIME GOES BY? I must be desperate for something to do!
The character “Sid,” a female physician, on the television series PROVIDENCE: Some people - especially women - I can imagine with an __ni_ious, natural order. She is one of them. It is hard for me to think of her naked: Her “smell” negates all desire to undress her!

(acerca de 2:19 P.M.) The Water Channel has to be wrong! It's much warmer than 72⁰ outside! Maybe the air is only flirting with the low-80⁰'s (F); but the low-70⁰'s? I don't so!
It was a great afternoon for juggling. Unfortunately, Aeolus wouldn't let me “walk” the clubs! So what I did I had about fifty minutes with 3-Ball Bounce! It has come to my attention that bounce-juggling is, in many ways, more difficult to execute nicely than “towards-the-sky” juggling: Not only is the pace of importance, but the individual release of each ball is critical! One must throw the ball to the ground and not just drop it! So bounce-juggling requires yet another factor or element that is not a matter of “life and death” in ariel juggling! I was forgetting that is my quest for excellence in “up-in-the- air” juggling!
Phoebus is hard at work! The Clouds are not at work! A beautiful final next-to-the-last day for Summer!
Did Carol Burnett prostitute her way to the Big Time via marriage to Joe (?) Hamilton, the producer of her variety show?
Did Tom ___, the former news director at NBC 13, “accidentally” keep David's position “open,” knowing that he would not stay long in Wichita Falls, TX? This was 2002 (?). David was at NBC 13, then Wichita Falls, then NBC 13 again.
I “explained” to Joyce that a bi-religious marriage is much more difficult to handle than a “bi-racial” one!

(acerca de 6:52 P.M.) Coolness has reported for duty! The upper-40⁰'s (F) have been called up and will be stationed around the area overnight. Month X is doing Its utmost to keep Heat from sneaking in!
Female in the business of music: It was quite some time ago, but, in an interview (print? radio? television?) she bemoaned the fact that, if she was (is?) lucky, she might be able to practice the piano, an hour a day. She was a small-business owner (a teacher).
The movie HAKARI (?): Elizabeth Taylor runs around in an outdoor scene wearing only black panties and bra. Obviously it was filmed decades ago! I recall males commenting on the scene. College male in the early-1970's or late-1960's?

(29th, About 6:07 A.M.) If the state would only listen to me, I can save it a lot of money! I have had these cost-saving measures “in place” for years, and if the state had only implemented them years ago, it wouldn't be in the mess it is now in!
Consolidate Auburn University in Montgomery, Troy State University in Montgomery, and Alabama State University, all in Montgomery. In Huntsville, combine the University of Alabama in Huntsville and Alabama A & M University. There is no longer legalized apartheid in Alabama. Transportation has improved tremendously.
But AUM, TSUM, ASU, UAH, A & M: These are businesses first. These educational institutions must justify their existence by, if nothing else, providing jobs for their graduates. If given chances, they would rather not! But then their importance would be questioned and they may be closed down!

(acerca de 6:34 A.M.) Did the cats play balloon volleyball during the “night”? There were three - maybe four - balloons in the kitchen when I made my first entrance of the day into that room (around 5:15 A.M.).
I “does” believe Fall has found Itself! There is a pronounced “nip” in the air!
If I had played clown as a child, I would never had been as “successful” as I was!
The interpretation of a casual remark by some people. (Sorry about this note! It must have meant something at one time!)

(acerca de 12:48 P.M.) As soon as I saw satirist Al Franken in action, I instinctively made a comparison to comedian Jack Benny: The phrasing, the timing, the body language. And both are products of Jewish culture (for what it's worth).
Mr. Franken was the “keynote” speaker at a dinner that the Democratic National Committee “threw” for the presidential candidates last Thursday after the debate. C-Span aired it yesterday. Between 5:30 and about 6:40, I watched about ten minutes of ABC WORLD NEWS, as well as the DNC dinner.
I have always associated clowning with Blues music: Both “artforms” cannot be affected, but must come from the entire lifestyle. One does not play a clown: One is a clown. One cannot sing a Blues song: One can only sing in the Blues style. Technically I have always been told that what distinguishes Blues music is the minor notes or chord. But I think there's much more to the Blues than notes!
I have also hear-tell that the vast majority of Blues musicians can't read music, that they just make music. It is as if their fingers knew something that the rest of them don't!
THE BLUES (8-9:30 P.M., P.B.S.) examines the “artform.” The episode aired yesterday evening is the first of seven.
Another thing clowning - especially circus - and the Blues have in common are the fans: Circus Fans and Blues Fans both are keen on the output. What clowning or the Blues do to the “creator” is of no importance to them!
I “caught” my regular Sunday afternoon program, THE MCLAUGHLIN GROUP (3:00-3:27 P.M., P.B.S.).
I can remember when television was “disapproved” for cars: It was obviously too distracting. Now, however, the newer models of automobiles come equipped with television: For the back seat.
One of these days - and soon - non-handheld “cell” telephones will be standard for all cars on the highway. No longer will the operator of a car have to drive with one hand while holding a cell phone with the other!
It takes a while for different technologies to get in sync with each other. That is what the Baroque did for the Renaissance and that is what the 21st century will make happen for everything it inherited for Century the XX!
A sexist statement: Women (and some men) don't want cloning (of people) because it would take away their advantage (or power)!

(acerca de 2:23 P.M.) It is as if Summer is doing anything to win our favor! Yes, even co-operate with Fall!
The final day of Summer 2003 has done something that hasn't been done in awhile: It has managed to get the upper-60⁰'s (F) to appear! The Clouds must have pushed Them: They “ain't” up in the sky!
A beautiful blue sky, made bluer by the yellow of Phoebus.
It's a fantastic mid-autumn day - in spite of the fact that the first part of autumn has yet to be installed! Apparently Fall wants us to enjoy it, in case Winter takes over mid-autumn!
More and more I hear, “We can't lose!”, in regards to Iraq. Such a declaration was unheard of two months ago, even by the anti-war element!
I must not fall for the book “depository” game! (?)
Joyce “hinted” that Hazel is doing inventory by herself. But Mandy may suddenly appear, and that's something I won't tolerate! Otherwise I would “volunteer” in the bookstore!

(acerca de 7:29 P.M.) According to unofficial reports (one from Joyce), insurance man Bill Hill killed himself this weekend after (or was it before?) he had shot his much-younger, trophy-wife. The wife survived two bullets. Why, oh why did he not make sure the woman was dead before shooting himself? It's bad enough to kill yourself over a woman, but to kill yourself and not the woman, also . . .!
Something besides a woman was behind the suicide! Pride? A inferiority complex? Mr. Hill was in his early-60's at least: Was he afraid of being alone?
Police profilers practice pre-conceptions. Anybody can be a murderer, a suicide, a theft, etc! A serial killer? After the first murder, the second is easier, the third easier still, and so forth!
By the way, many fighting women and men in Iraq are serial killers of Iraqi soldiers - and civilians!
New sales woman, new cigarette, new price: I don't know the sales woman name, but the cigarettes are Ol' Kentucky, that price $1.93.

(30th, About 5:55 A.M.) Whenever I “throw” a right-to-left “circle,” how many balls leave my right hand each second? Three? Four? Five? Whatever it is, it isn't fast enough!
But I “throw” 3-ball display fast enough to inflame my right elbow with tendonitis! I have been blaming wood chipping, but “t'ain't” so: It's the rapid articulation of the elbow! Imagine the wear and tear on my elbow if four or five balls were involved!
The main reason for the “dropage” - “Circle/Fountain” juggling as well as “Cascade” - is the “outward” twist from the vertical plane, an imaginary area that should be parallel to my body at all times. What's at the root of the geometric violation: Do I not toss fast enough or is the wrist of my right arm not giving me enough of a flip? As I have stressed, juggling is two movements: The “pumping” action of the forearm or forearms is/are what guarantees the “up” movement of the ball in an uncontrolled manner (usually manifested by the ball being thrown “away” [out] from the body). It is/are the wrist/wrists that are responsible for the integrity of the vertical plane.
Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr, was no demagogue. He didn't “perform” his speeches. It was as if he was thinking outloud whenever he was at the podium. As if he was writing his speech as he went along!
Dr. King wasn't selling civil rights: He was taking what was rightfully his. Others used him: and he didn't mind one bit!

(acerca de 6:32 A.M.) The participants in the Boston Tea Party of 1775: Dressing up as Indians. How cowardly! Probably the American Indian represented “savagery” used either as a point to the British (“The Stamp Act is so savage, only savagery will get rid of it!”) or a way to “confuse” the British by letting the British think the dumping overboard of tea was the usual terrorism inflicted on the colonists!
The United States of America was, thereof, founded in terrorism!

(acerca de 12:37 P.M) “I am the resurrection, the way, and the life . . .” or however it goes: If the flowers are given three or four more weeks of life, then I will be a hero in the plant world!
On Ronnie's “orders,” two inmates “de-flowered” the flower beds. I was close-by to rescue the flowers, and re-plant them in the curb-side formerly vacant plot by the cafetorium (the east “wing” plot). I am not finish, but why stay beyond my normal hours just on a chance? If the flowers don't live again, then they don't!
I will also “activate” the small raised flower bed in the “lower” courtyard.
It's just a hole, what's the big deal? I dug it yesterday to give added life to one of the shubs that was displaced from in front of the marque (the “Central Alabama Community College” sign in front of the campus). It is on the south front corner of the administration building covering up for ground shubbery that I “pruned.”
Milt was all beside himself that I dug a good hole. Dug a good hole? Give me a break!
Bill Hill, the man that killed himself, was 70 years old. As I stated to David and Joyce this morning, he had lived long enough: But will I feel this way if I make it to seventy?
From about 4:4_ to about 7:20 yesterday, Kayla was over here. As she matures, so does my uncle-hood (or great-uncle-hood).
The thought that I may have actually married a woman like Anita Matlow scared me so, I had no choice but to change my ways! The similarities between Anita and granny are frightening! Thank you, Muse, for protecting me from myself!
My checking account was “blowed up” by the fantastic sum of $500.08. I ask you: Is that fair? Considering that I am more qualified than most people - anywhere, not only at CACC - shouldn't my paycheck reflect such?

(acerca de 2:20 P.M.) If an animal is taken from its natural environment, is it still that animal? Is a buffalo a buffalo if fenced and treated like cattle? Can a lion exist only in the jungle? Is this why zoos are caging animals into ersatz “natural environments? Or - what is more likely - are zoos only presenting textbook to people in order to increase ticket sales, and the benefit of the animal be damned?
Can a person sing the Blues i_ separated from her/his environment? Is it possible to sing some one else's song? Granted, it's great that college-trained musicians are re-creating the old-time Blues. But is it really the Blues? I guess it depends on whether or not a person voluntarily “presents” the Blues!
The second episode of THE BLUES (8-9:35 P.M., P.B.S.) aired yesterday. Having experience in a Blues-related “artform” - circus clowning - I question whether or not the Blues can be up dated and “enhanced” with orchestration, as is being done.
How about recordings of the original: Can the records be “cleaned up” and still be the original, or is it like the Renaissance did to Greek culture, making it as what the Renaissance thought it should be? Does it all boil down to Blues Fans don't approve of the lifestyle led by Blues musicians, but it was exactly that lifestyle that made the Blues possible? Neo-Blues? Pseudo-Blues? The latter is more like it!

(acerca de 3:40 P.M.) Yesterday evening I started to wonder about something that occurred nearly ten years ago: For Christmas 1993, I presented Richard and Mary Pereles with tickets to a Blues concert that was to take place at the civic center in Louisville, KY, around the holidays. I made a trip back to Alabama (like the fool I was), but I have always assumed the Pereles attended the concert. Richard claimed to be a fan of Blues music (he was most likely a Blues Fan the same as “Pepé” Calderón [Carson and Barnes Circus]. “Pepé” didn't even know who B.B. King is!). Although Richard commented (negatively, as always) on the pretension-ness of classical music attendees - a concert of the Louisville Symphony was supposively going on in the main Concert Hall. Mary never said anything about the Blues concert. In all problability, Richard threw the tickets in the garbage! Or maybe sold them!
What was I thinking when I became “friends” with those two?
Surely “you” must see how important a ___ environment plays in a person's life! If I have had real people around me, I would have had a much more presentable past!
We are, indeed, “blank slates” when we are born!!
So “you” see, folks, one's parents play a very minor role in one's life! Nice try , though, Dr. Freud!
“The sun is out/the sky is blue/there's not a cloud/to spoil the view/But it's . . .” a gorgeous final day of Month IX! I hope I can go out like this! The mid-70⁰'s (F) may not be too much of a stress on the relocated flowers! It wasn't on the “flowerer,” that's for sure!
Terrorism is war? No! I mean, yes! War is terrorism in the first place! By all sides!

(acerca de 4:35 P.M.) If I'm lying, I'm dying!
“. . .having lost all memory of their former existence after drinking the water of Lethe, these souls are awaiting their turn to be born again in new bodies, with new identities that have already been assigned to them.”
My exact sentiments! The summary of Aeneas' conversation with the spirit of his father, Anchises in the underworld (the Elysium Fields) in Book VI of “The Aeneid” by Virgil from Cliff's Notes written by RIchard McDougall (page 56) was my boyhood “theory” of life on earth, long before I even heard of “The Aeneid”! So in answer to the question, “Was there a Phillip Wilson during the Roman times?, the answer would be, “Yes!”! According to such a re-cycling policy, it takes a thousand years for the “soul” to be re-assigned. And you know what that means: There has been two other Phillip Wilson's throughout history and pre-history!
That's enough to sicken one!
It's convenient to blame affirmative action when one “fail”!

(acerca de 6:10 P.M.) Must a person “suspend reality” in order to be accepted by society? For all the talk about wanting children to be independent, that's the last thing that the status quo wants!
If George W. Bush is pushing states rights, maybe the states are beginning to realize why! It's cheaper that way for the administration
As I was preparing for my January 1991 trip to Europe, granny, of all people, “pleaded” with me not to go: There was a “war” in the Persian Gulf. Well, now I wish somebody would plead with me not to remain in Childersburg, AL: There is again “war” in Iraq! (continued)




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