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My terrible life
2017-11-01 02:16:05 (UTC)

Intro to my terrible life

Hi my life is terrible. None of my entries will ever be written well and things will probably be misspelled but whatever. so i am in 8th grade and i used to think that writing online like this was stupid but look at me now. My life recently has been terrible. You wouldn't think that if you ever met me in person. I mean I'm pretty popular, above average looking and I'm smart. But what you really don't know is i have major anxiety and depression. I'm in a huge group of friends who are all popular but the thing is I'm not really friends with any of them. If you want to read about some stupid sappy middle school stuff then you've come to the right place. I'm obviously not going to say too much because I don't trust the internet. I'm going to give you a short rundown of whats going on but I wont go into too much detail because I'm lazy. So basically I'm pretty new to this friend group and even people who've joined after me have gotten close with everyone already but i haven't. I have one or two close friends in the group but they've already replaced me with the other girls. Now here is where things went super wrong super fast. Last Monday someone who I was friends with before i was even in the group (she's in the group and she fitted in right away) all of a sudden started being distant. So i tried to talk to her in person but she ignored me. Then i found out that she blocked me on all social media so i texted her to ask her what was going on. All of a sudden she called me fake and says everyone thinks I'm fake and maybe if i stopped someone would like me for once. She said she didn't want someone like me around them and that she never wanted to talk to me again. I had a panic attack and i didn't go to school for the next two days. When i got back the whole school knew what happened. Every time i cam near my "friends" and she was there she would grab someone and walk away with them to go talk about me behind my back. I've spent most of my time at school since then crying and visiting the counsellor. Also i forgot to mention that I have a brother a year younger than me who goes to my school and makes fun of me for whats going on. So about that friend I was talking about you'll probably hear about her a lot so lets just call her Snake. So anyway tonight there is this huge halloween party and everyone in the group went. Including this guy in my grade who I happen to have a crush on. He is one of my brother's closest friends and the two of us are also friends. we are first on each others best friend list on snapchat and we spend a lot of time together. Lets call him.... um.. Bob. I'm going to forget all of these names sooner or later. So I wasn't invited to the party because Snake was going to be there and since she was closer with everyone she naturally was chosen over me. So thats why I'm spending my halloween handing out candies to little kids while my brother and his friend make fun of me. Another reason Snake doesn't like me is because she has a huge crush on Bob and she's jealous because him and I are really close. After what happened between me and snake bob un added her from snapchat. Also she got turned down by her old crush because he said he didn't know her that well even though they talk all of the time. And after not ever knowing me he asked me out. So obviously Snake started calling me names like...... well I think you could guess. Anyways I hate being at school I've been so depressed recently because I'm in a group of such fake people. I want some real friends. My parents and I have decided to try and switch my school so i can have a fresh start. So that's most of whats going on I've left out a few things but this is the main stuff. I'll update you on my terrible life sometime in the future.




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