Jake 🇺🇸

Killing Lions
2017-10-26 20:51:46 (UTC)

Reflections

I was just reading some of my old entries. This is what I love about this diary, I can look at my past and laugh at the awkward things the old version of myself would spout. One thing that stuck was how much alone time I had. Alone time isn't something I've had much of lately, there's always distractions, my phone, my music, my business, my roommates, this party i need to plan lol. It's devilishly easy to slide into reading one more facebook post or checking your notifications, suddenly you look up and you see that it's almost 9PM and you feel like crap because you wasted your whole evening on dumb things.


Last night I ran 16.5 miles. I ran completely out of the city, I found a rural gravel road and just ran along it, unsure exactly where it would lead. It was just the perfect weather for running, nice and cool. As the sun set I found myself looking around me at the road, the fields and the orange glow of the sun falling behind the corn fields. Just a breathtaking view that I haven't been able to enjoy in months. It was a memory I doubt I'll ever forget, a truly emotional time. I cannot describe how I felt, just so free, so happy to be alive, happy to be able to have all of my senses fully immersed into the beauty of God's awesome creation.


I ran about a 8:00 min/mile pace for the first 13 miles through the dark, the last 3.5 miles I sprinted (about 6:40 min/mile) home my heart pounding but with home so close I could hold it out until I could get home, take a shower and just lay on the couch. Felt soooooooo good :D. I had by far the best runner's high I've ever experienced. It was exhilarating, I was tired, dehydrated, a bit lightheaded but feeling as if I had just conquered the world. Long runs for me have gotten wayyy easier after I ran my marathon. Normally I'd be pretty tired after a 13 miles, but not me, I had enough to sprint the last 3.5 miles. So proud of myself :)


Why do I write? I write so that in 10 years I'll be able to look back at my memories and not lose sight of myself and how far I've come. I hope I never get too lazy about writing, I also hope I don't forget my past. My high school life just seems so, so far away. And it was, that was 6 years ago!!! Whoa. I don't even consider myself really growing up until my late college years. I was a late bloomer :p.


I really do want to keep running alone. Running gives me my alone time. I shouldn't listen to music, I should just experience emotion...


Anyway, I wanna try to break my 5km record tomorrow!!! Can't wait :)




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