Emily

Lost Thoughts
2017-10-23 03:27:48 (UTC)

My First Entry

Well... This is quite different.

I'm just going to be honest with myself right now and say that I will probably regret doing something like this in the future. When I tend to look back at my old writing it seems like it's not actually me... I'm not sure if that makes sense? but yeah. It kinda makes me uncomfortable to look back at my old emotions and feelings over things and situations that can be so silly. I already know that it's very possible that nobody will read any of my entries. (Getting the depressing vibe already?) So, I'm not going to try and fake any of my emotions just to please others on how they look at me as a person. (Sometimes you just have to stay true to yourself.)

Either way though, if you've made it this far in reading. My life is quite boring, (myself included) and I'm a very difficult person to know. Honestly, sometimes I can't even read my own emotions and recognize what the hell I'm doing half of the time. I don't have an interesting life, so if you were expecting to read about someone who constantly has stories to tell and other things, I'm sorry to disappoint you. I'm just a girl with a small dysfunctional family, growing up without a mom and never goes anywhere outside her own city unless she is involved in other peoples activities. To change into that subject, I usually try to keep myself busy. I see all the fun things that people do with their lives and I'm here wasting away still not aware of anything I want to do with my own life. Nothing truly brings me joy and if it does, I easily get tired or bored of it and go back to looking for meaning. I'm sure by the time you read through each of my passages. You will know everything you need to know about a lost girl trying to find her meaning in life.




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