DonnaK

To someone
2017-10-02 09:47:39 (UTC)

Autumn is here...

So again I have found out you are lying to your family about the breakup. If what you did was acceptable why not tell them? Why not tell them you have been cheating on me for 2yrs and have moved in with the woman? Why is it so important to you that you are seen as the good guy but you act so badly? Affairs happen so why hide it? It won't change how they feel about you or what I am doing they love you they will be on your side.

Despite what is going on I miss you everyday. I miss talking to you...I miss not having you around. So many times I have attempted to message you despite you telling me not to and so far I have held back. I still want to shake you and ask you what you are doing but I am slowly accepting who you really are and like I have said in previous posts that actually you didn't love me...I wasn't you one and you will drop me once I become of no use. Sad thing is had you told me you didn't have the money for the flight and expressed you really did want to come to the states I would have found the money somewhere. But it seems my fears were correct and you have had three weeks unpaid leave which has now hit you and you can't afford your bills or even your child support to the other children. I am sorry all I wanted was for you to have a good life...I thought I was supporting you in that but I can now see your point where you say money was always an issue. I agree money was always an issue and perhaps deep down inside I knew you would leave me somself protect mode came in. If you had have stuck it out we would have been a working partnership forever. For my part in this I will be forever sorry. I do not want to and feel I never have controlled your life...you spent what you wanted i.e. with your own money..you went out when you wanted...so I am a little confused about the control aspect. Did I want to know where we finacially stood...yes I did because so many times you lied to me about money that when I found out it was too late. I just wanted to be open and honest and now I am on standby I was looking forward to the extra bit of money to make our (yes I mean our) lives more comfortable.

I have booked the holiday to Gran Canaria and you have an open invitation to come with us. I have booked Euro disney and again you have an open invitation to come with us. Eurodisney is fully paid for two....

I truely love you...i miss you more than words can say... come home...xxx




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