DonnaK

To someone
2017-09-23 09:31:35 (UTC)

odd

Well this is an odd entry to write considering the exchanges we have had last night and this morning. I have found out a few things that I really suspected but had no real foundation for. But it's helped me move on that slight bit more..seeing what an idiot I have been and the things that I think have been going on seems like they have been going on. It actually vindicated me last night that actually I am not that evil woman after all that I did have reason to act the way I did but I just didn't know it.

It doesn't stop my feelings for you though or that I miss you everyday and long for the texts and the communications. When you told me about your adventurous holiday this morning I was actually pleased for you and not jealous. I figured that it would give you time to sort your head out whether you were alone or not (you told me you were alone) and maybe this will help you to move on and finally decide what you actually want out of life. You said you thought you had found what you wanted in life (I assumed that you hinted that it was me) but that clearly is not the case as you keep leaving, assuming that there is something better out there..maybe there is and I guess this is the time to find out with no regrets and no going backwards to stride on forward. As you said actions have consequences and you leaving had huge ones on both of us but I suspect that this actually will be good for us and break that circle we seem to be going around in..

I love you, I miss you, come home.




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