BrainsWithoutBeauty

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2017-09-05 13:54:58 (UTC)

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I deleted an entry because it double posted, but it deleted both of them.

It was just about being tortured, interrogated and talking and how that makes me lose friends and allies.

See, people hear me, but don't say they do and then think that I'm just running my mouth. I'm not. I'm being tortured and trying (if I can) to live my life. I try not to talk but changed alpha and beta waves in my brain, along with induced fear, anxiety, depression and anger (sometimes giddiness) plus all the other stuff really doesn't leave me with much, if any, choices. I'm dying. I just am. Those weapons are killing me. They're the same ones they used to try to kill me publicly or privately and they won't stop! I haven't done anything wrong. I am not the lies they tell about me. I would apologize to people for what I've said but I don't remember. I guess that's central nervous system malfunction? IDK. Maybe it is the physical, emotional, psychological and verbal abuse. Maybe it's the damage caused by the weapons. I'm not mentally retarded or anything. I'm pretty sure my IQ would be way above average like it was before but it's just so much. I'm not crazy. They want people to believe I am crazy because I AM telling the truth. OK sure I get confused about what people are doing because in a lot of cases, I just don't know. So I guess. But, in other cases, I know how long people have been lying (to police and others) about me. There are witnesses. I can't stop people from lying to the police or other governmental officials. I can't stop people from spreading lies on the internet or in person. People (strangers) actually seek me out to lie and spread lies to others around me in person!!! I can't stop them either. I have tried to talk to some of them and they just deny, lie and it's not good. Really? The passive-aggressiveness of it is so frustrating. Plus, you know, my life is at stake and I live in constant danger. They have lied to murderers, kidnappers, and God knows what others and what they do. Oh yeah, torturers and terrorizers. Suiciders. Libellers. Slanderers. Computer hackers. Computer users. They also promise them fame and fortune. Or money. Or their names in the paper. Or apartments for free. Or houses for free. Or drugs for free. Some of them have already gotten those incentives and rewards for crime. I'm not kidding. They offer $400 per "episode" and $500 to lie to police officers or anyone in the government on any level in any department!! Seriously!!!




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