Gattina

My words to describe
2017-09-04 12:18:41 (UTC)

This morning

Today is labor day. Free day off from work for me. Thank the heavens above. Another free day of not having to fake a damn thing.

I should be productive. I should...I won't. I am not up for the responsibility . I am going to actually let myself just lay here and deal with what i have to deal with.

You see, early this morning, i finally admitted to myself that i have some serious health conditions that i need to do deal with.
I, am not ready to deal with them. I, just had enough courage to admit to myself that i HAVE them to begin with.
Perhaps the course of today, will allow me to do such a thing.

In all honesty, i feel like giving up. I think that is pretty normal. It seems much easier, right? This is the hard way to handle it, giving up, shiiiiit, that takes nothing. Easy peasy...sigh. I won't give up, but it has crossed my mind a time or two. Giving up has danced in my mind, entertained his friends and over stayed his welcome.




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