✯Sincerely, Me✯

☯LivingWithMyself☯
2017-08-20 21:21:40 (UTC)

The Solar Eclipse

Dear Reader,

So, I missed the eclipse.
I was watching it with the glasses, and everything, and it got so dark.

We watched the sliver of sun gradually disappear, until it became just tiny pin prick of light.

We were ready for the totality, and to see the Corona, and the diamond ring..

And, the speck didn't vanish, it started to grow..

I couldn't believe it. I honestly couldn't believe it.

And even though it was amazing to see as much I saw of it, I can't help but feel so disappointed.


Like, I honestly want to cry. I know it's probably stupid to be upset over it, and I should be grateful to have experienced it.. but my friends and family all saw the totality,and posting pictures, and people on the Internet, the news talking about how it was a life changing experience, How they feel connected to others they watched it with, and it was a once in a life-time opportunity to witness it...

And I feel like I just missed out completely, even though I saw it almost nearly cover the sun. I can't relate to any of that. It was so close, it was almost there... it was right there, and I wanted to see it so much.. .
I was so excited, it's the first thing I've been looking forward to in a long time..

And today.. makes two months since J passed away... And a month since I broke up with Josh.

I can't believe I missed it. I'll probably never see another one. I'll probably be dead before the next one.

I started to get some cheetos today... but then I put them back.

And now, my headache that I've had all day is slowly getting worse. I started to take some painkillers, but there's only two left, and I need to save them for when I have a worse headache than this.

Sincerely,
OutOfTheLoop




Ad: