what would you do to save your own life?
this whole process would be less repugnant if I had even 10% more physical and mental strength. blanket depression does not a thing favourable for the muscles and joints and my neck has had a kink in it for weeks to boot. maybe it's meningitis.
... back into the frying pan in tomorrow. the i love yous have ceased. there were some residual I love yous, but they appear to be over.