Habibullo-Eugene Kiselev
A Synopsis of my Life
July 15th, 2017, Saturday, 10:20:30 p.m.
Yekaterinburg, Russia. GMT 05:00
The middle of the summer… Ah… I still cannot get over the depression I have had since spring or even winter, I believe. However, I am still not sure when it started. I am constantly saturnine and miserable, showing no interest towards life around me. I often cry without any tears or wailing in loneliness. My mom is doing her best in her attempts to amuse me; nevertheless, her tries are all in vain and bring no positive results. Well, I am grateful to her, anyway. The reason of such state of mine is very simple: I really, really, really wish to emigrate, however I have no opportunity to do that, at least legally. I already wrote about this. All the best things have already come about in my life. Okay, I will not be plowing the sand for now.
Tonight, I gave a call to Jəkub Fəizov (Tartar Cyrillic: Якуб Фәизов), a security from the Copper Mosque in Verkhnyaya Pyshma (a small town not far away from Yekaterinburg). He was my student of English in the first semester of the last academic year. He is currently pursuing a Master’s Degree in Theology at the Ural State Mining University. He is a part-time student there. Okay. We were talking about the subject of me visiting the Copper Mosque this month. He was glad to hear from me and he also said that he had been waiting for me a week earlier… Oh… He was waiting for me in Verkhnyaya Pyshma… I even shed a few tears while I was sitting in my mom’s armchair, having heard these words. Someone is waiting for me… Therefore, someone needs me. Oh… That is so marvelous! YEAH!
To be honest, I would be so happy if someone was waiting for me abroad not to get money, though… I know, yeah, I certainly know that I am welcome in other countries only as a tourist, or a dairy cow, to be more precise. Say, come to our country, pay money and leave. We do not need you unless you have money to pay us. I would like that I would be needed abroad not because of money, but rather because of my knowledge, qualifications and so forth. Where will I find such an option? Will I EVER find it? I do not know…
So, we talked with Jəkub, and he said I could come around the last week of July; however, I was supposed to give him a call beforehand.
That is how my day finished.
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