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Larry's Life Journey
2017-07-18 05:45:00 (UTC)

The Journey Begins Part 1

Well here we are again trying something that worked for a while but I stopped because well you know it was all "GETTING BETTER". Boy who was I fooling. anyway this is going to be a new adventure that I have to be sure and keep up with. I had Gastric Bypass surgery Sept 22, 2014. I have lost a total of 135 pounds well actually closer to 200 but who is counting. All has been going well until the last few months. They say once you get past your first year of weight loss the real work begins and there is always the chance of regain. I have become so obsessed with this thought it has literally effected not only my life but the lives of everyone who cares about me. It's not just the physical that is so bead but the mental aspects of it and all these symptoms I been experiencing. I get physical sick anytime I am around food. I have to force myself to eat then a few minutes later I throw it back up. Then there is the voices inside my head that are always talking to me saying you might have won the battle but not the war such phrases as 'I am still here" Your are going to fail it's only a matter of time. This has been effecting my sleeping, my moods, every possible aspect of my life. So what do you do? well I am seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist to try to get things under control. I hope this helps because I have promised myself if the old Larry comes back I will not be around to welcome him. So this is all for now chat again soon. Today is my first session with the therapist hope all goes well will update soon.




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