Kris

Kris
2017-07-17 18:35:29 (UTC)

Confused once more.

Recently, I have been doing lots of drugs and drinking a lot of alcohol, far more than I should, and far more than I wish. However, whenever I do engage in those types of social activities, I find it difficult to stop. Why? Because there is nothing to return to at home. I'm lost and confused. I've secured a part time job position that is willing to provide me with 20 hours per week, but is that what I really need at this point in my life? I'm not convinced. It seems to be that getting paid money will only add fuel to the fire and make my life a living hell. Furthermore, if I do pursue this employment opportunity and have a relapse while doing it, I will probably get fired. Which will make it extremely difficult to get back on EIA. However, sitting on EIA isn't something that I want to do right now. It seems like an endless cycle of conflicting things that are not only beneficial, but destructive. What do I do? Please Lord, help me.




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