Karma Rose

My Secret Thoughts
2017-07-11 03:48:58 (UTC)

Today Was a Mess But I Found Out a Lot...

Quick update on what happened today:
I was hanging around the cool, cooool library until it was time for me to head out to catch the bus. I sat on the steps near the parking lot near the shade and some girl threw me a dirty ass look. I didn't even know her. I think some of the students don't like the fact that high school students are working alongside them, so annoying. I remember I heard two students talking about us high school students, whispering and laughing at us even though we are doing better than them. Whatever, seriously people are so annoying. I get it you feel inferior compared to us but don't just talk behind our back, say it to our face. I'd like to smack that pretty face of yours, really I do!

I got on the bus and 3 minutes later I hear the bus driver say, "shit, come on!". I'm thinking, oh was there another accident (he made the same reaction when a car was flipped over on the freeway). I didn't see any accident, so then I thought, oh is the car in front of us not moving, and then the car started moving. I watched him turn the bus on and off, over and over again. It finally hit me, the bus wasn't moving. Shit, and I have to meet Caden today too, is what I immediately thought. He went outside and put cones at the back of the bus. I got all worried and called Mom and told her that she might have to pick me up, which worried me because she is not familiar with the area and she doesn't know how to use her gps, or I have to take another bus and will most likely become lost. My phone was about to die which made me even more worried, I rely on google maps way too much. (On orientation day, I got lost getting back to the parking lot and had to use my gps *sigh*) I was asked to get out of the bus and just wait because another bus was on its way. I asked if this happens often and he told me that this hasn't happened to him for 15 years. 15 YEARS! I have the worst luck ever! I got off my stop and I had to take another bus to get home...the second bus was gone...we were too late and it wouldn't be back until another 2 hours! I check google maps for other buses and see that they would all take 2 hours to get home! I called my mom, she said okay and she was so pissed when she came to pick me up and lectured me about waiting somewhere where there weren't so many cars passing by. She told me that next time I have to wait at the gasoline station which I don't mind.

I texted Chase about my situation at the bus and he was telling me to stay calm and that everything was going to be alright. It was weird. He couldn't pick me up because he was at work. When everything was resolved, me getting on the new bus, I told him and said thank for listening. His reply: "No problem. We don't always get along but I do worry about you." At first I thought this was complete b.s. but considering how Chase is, it was probably not. I asked him and he said he was genuinely worried. Man, I'm such a jerk.

Mom got even more pissed when I asked her to drop me off at the library so I can meet up with Caden. She dropped me off cuz it was on our way home. I went inside the library looking for him, he wasn't there. I was so pissed, I called him and he told me he was on his way. Honestly I wasn't pissed, I enjoy teasing him and making him feel bad. I told him about how I go to school at 6 and come back at 5, all the while only eating one single orange. I told him I was starving and that he should take me out to eat, he even said he would if I wanted. It was so funny. We are both socially awkward. I noticed that I have this uncontrollable laugh when I get nervous, so the whole time I was laughing and saying weird things like, "Dud, I seriously want to kill myself. Tell the police, ppplllleeassseee. They'll lock me up and then I'll have an excuse to not go to school...*I say this in a whisper*" His reactions are just too funny. He never looks me in the eyes though, why I wonder. He made a drawing for me and I let him borrow Chase's book, then the library closed and we left. Me: "Aren't you going to walk be home? I can get kidnapped you know." Caden: "Do you want me to? I will if you want me to.". Haha of course I was joking, I just enjoy seeing his reactions to weird things I say. A good friend. I've been planning on asking him if he could be my dummy for when I practice Judo (no joke) as well as my brother (fuck I forgot we were supposed to practice today, I'm too busy though ugh I hate life). I'm sure he is going to say yes.

I got home. Mom made me mango which tasted delicious. I talked to Dad about my day and we talked about his, we are getting along now. I went to go give water to my pets. Nathan, that little fucker, ate the chips that I left in my room. I am so pissed at him and I am so getting pay back.

I messaged an old friend of mine from 2 years ago, Jane. I just said "hey" and she messaged me back right away. We talked about the past and how we are doing now. I even gave her a link to my diary, she is the first person that I ever actually told (no one knows I am doing this). I wonder if we're going to become really close friends this time. I wonder.

Well that is how my day went. Talk to you tomorrow!
-kr7
I have school tomorrow :(




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