DustyRose

Through My Eyes
2017-07-11 01:51:01 (UTC)

Think about it.

Today is one of those days. One of the dark days. The kind that you don't have the energy or motivation to get out of bed. The kind of day that you just sit there and listen to depressing songs. The kind that you have an overwhelming feeling in your chest and head of something greater then sadness. Something greater then words. The kind that makes you sit and think about everything. The kind of day that you have to give yourself pep talks just to keep going in this race called life. On these days I think about my favorite quote. "Death must be so beautiful. To lie in the soft brown earth, with the grasses waving above one's head, and listen to silence. To have no yesterday, and no tomorrow. To forget time. To forget life. To be at peace."-Oscar Wilde. It makes one think about death in another perspective. However, it also gets me thinking about other people, When you die its not just affecting you. Its effecting everyone. think about your parents, think about your siblings, think about your friends, think about your significant other. You can't tell me that not one person would be effected by your passing. you can not tell me that you will not me missed. On these days all you could think of is how you can't leave the people that you love on their own. When scrolling threw Instagram I saw something amazing. I saw a quote which said "If I killed myself tonight, the stars would still appear, the sun would still come out, the Earth would still rotate, the seasons would still change.... so why not?" and at first I agreed, however, There was one persons comment that really got to me. they said " fuck this. fuck this post so much. Do not tell me your best friend would not sit at your lunch table for three fucking days just staring blankly at your old seat wishing that you were there to fill the space with laughter. Do not tell me your younger brother/ sister would not break down in the middle of class because you guys starting talking about your favorite type of subject in school. Do not tell me your mother would not stare into the mirror with trembling lips wishing she could be bringing you home from the hospital rather then having to escort you away in a casket to the nearest graveyard. Do not tell me your father would not begin working the night shifts to distract himself of the silence at home because you're not up until the ungodly hours of the night talking to whats his/her face on the phone because you guys are so in love. Do not tell me your boyfriend/girlfriend would not go into your room and put on the last hoodie you wore trying to desperately imprint your scent onto their skin so they never forget your smell. Do not tell me your friends would not stare blankly at the gymnasium wall after the principal has announced your death to the entire school making no sound trying to convince themselves this is just another one of your impractical jokes. Do not tell me this bullshit line of how the stars would still appear, the sun would still come out, the earth would still rotate and the seasons will still change because without you none of these people will want any of that to happen" This hits deep because its true. its not just about you. I get that its hard trust me I often think about it but whenever you have your dark days please think of this. I understand some of you aren't in high school anymore or don't have some of these people in your life but think about the ones you do.
think about it.




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