What I Know, Feel, Think, Dream, and Realize
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2017-07-01 17:20:00 (UTC)

My mother asked me a question that I ..

My mother asked me a question that I have been thinking about a lot. She said "What do I want?" I doubt she meant it as a serious question and meant for it just being at the time, it got me thinking in general in life. What do I want? What makes me wake up everyday and try my hardest? For money? Fame? Dream family? No. I don't think it's any of that. Honestly I'm not sure if it's for anything and if that is the case, why? Some say I haven't found my reason and that if I continue in life then I will. You know what I say? I say that everyone in the world lives without a reason so we trick ourselves into believing in one to fill in that spot with something when in reality nothing we put there will ever fill in that void. It will always remain empty, cold, and sad. And those who realize the true nature of the void in ourselves are doomed to always feel empty with never getting that false sense of happiness. See you later journal