Nicole

Nicole
2017-07-09 04:12:46 (UTC)

Hypoglycemia or Depersonalization?

I'm not sure what's going on. I did have a coffee energy drink, sugary sweets, and carbs for dinner. I started feeling my anxiety/pulse rising not long after I ate dinner. I decided a nice warm bath might help soothe me. It did not. I shouldl've known better than to have a warm bath. That only raised the anxiety/pulse rate. While in the tub, I started feeling weird and knew I didn't feel myself. I felt like I needed to lie down and close my eyes to meditate. I started to feel more and more like I was in a dream-like state. I didn't feel like me. My hands were shaky at this time. Maybe this was due to hypoglycemia since this kind of thing is normal for me when I have too much sugar. I knew I was in my body, though I felt really, really weak. I felt like I could barely walk and could fall over at any moment. What concerned me though is when I looked in the mirror, my eyes didn't look like my eyes. It looked as if something took control over my body. My eyes looked very different. They never looked this way before. When I noticed this, I couldn't bare looking into the mirror because it kind of freaked me out. I didn't understand what was happening. I'm trying to piece all of this together. I know I need to be extremely cautious for awhile and see if this feeling happens again. Maybe this is due to my childhood trauma, current events that happened due to depression, the loss of my grandmother, fear of losing my grandfather soon, never feeling good enough, being overweight, and hypoglycemia. Maybe this combination has caused depersonalization? I'm confused what happened and what is going on with me. Or maybe this whole this is just merely due to hypoglycemia? I'm so confused and I really hope I can get some answers soon.




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