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So I left date #9 alone. Well guess who contacted me? Yep. #9. She is hot. I mean really hot but.... I don't want to deal with drama. She didn't want me so why try to hook up with me now? Sorry, this time, I'm going to listen to my other head. I didn't even reply to her.
Also, the ex texted me telling me she misses me, my jokes, etc, etc. Yup, after all these years, she is still playing her games. I actually asked her is she wasn't tired of these games? Secret texts to me hiding it from her current man? Nope, not for me. Fuck that. It just makes me sad that this means I won't be seeing the kiddos. Tough choices I have to make in life. I don't like it. It does hurt me to realize I am leaving the kiddos to their Mom. It's just that I don't have much left in me to deal with drama so I have to let things go so I can save whatever life and/or soul I have left.
I have no dreams of finding the love of my life anymore. I just want to kick back somewhere, look at nature, do some fishing or some shit that doesn't include drama and live quietly ever after. At least I'm somewhat financially ok and that's not something I have to worry about. So considering how things could be worse, I have to pat myself on that back a little. At least the things I can control are doing ok.
There is a possible date #10, #11, and #12 but online dating seems to be more work now that finding the love of my life.