Habibullo-Eugene Kiselev
A Synopsis of my Life
May 6th, 2017, Saturday, 12:19:20 a.m.
Yekaterinburg, Russia. GMT 05:00
So, at the moment, I am continuing with my poems, research and teaching English as a second language. I cannot say I am thoroughly satisfied with what I am doing in any of these fields. Maybe, this is even better to me. As we know, Leonardo da Vinci, an art genius, was totally dissatisfied with his Giaconda, one of the most remarkable art masterpieces of the world. Why am I comparing myself to da Vinci? I am grit, a worm! What have I done and what can I ever do to contribute to art, science or teaching? Nevertheless, I am doing and sometimes I am progressing… This is strange… Well, I have abandoned myself to criticism and doubts about my abilities. Eugene Lobanov says I have to reject all criticizing maxims, doubts and continue my work to reach perfection. My opinion is that doubts are better that megalomania…
Okay. I have finally received criticism from Essama Chiba, which kind of discouraged me. She failed to comprehend what I was writing about. Then I explained all that to her. It is not a good idea to explain poetry, though. She gave me a great deal of exhortations about it (thanks to her!), and I changed my poem a bit as she advised me.
Also, I made acquaintance with an interesting person, poet, linguist and Vedic astrologer, a Jew by nationality, Yuri Abrech (Russian: Юрий Аврех). I tried to learn from him, how we could unite astrology and mysticism with high poetry. He said he did not know the answer. Finally, he offered me to take astrology classes from him. However, first of all, I should feel that the stars call me to serve them; I have to actually experience that as it happened with the Runes.
Speaking about my pedagogical activity, yeah, I am still teaching at the “Meridian”. Recently, one of my FCE students said he would like to move abroad, get a citizenship and start his own business there. Oh, that is so great! I believe in our successors. They are marvelous people!
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