High Noon

الشكوى
2017-06-18 00:00:00 (UTC)

Better Yourself

I remember at the beginning of sophomore year, I was changing. I thought the change was weird but I began to get comfortable, you know, to start liking it. It was to better myself. I began to get tired of being push overs or the invisible one or the used one in that clique or whatever. They all had some sort of bad reputation whether it was being dumb, doing something dumb, or just being plain out stupid. Not to be prideful, but I was the completely opposite one of the group. From multiple people to even family members would ask me, "Why do you hang out with them?" They would mostly refer to them having a bad reputation but it wasn't' the reputation that bothered me. It was how uncomfortable I felt being around them. They made a ton of bad behavior (thankfully I wasn't in any big trouble) and I was treated differently from that group. It was either that or I was treated as if I was invisible. At first I didn't know if it was their way of telling me they just didn't want to hang out with me. So I dissociated myself from them. I'm not sure if they dissociated themselves from me but anyways, I already know they "think I'm moving funny" or "acting fake," but I find it sad how today bettering yourself in my society is considered being fake. But I'm not going to lie, I do it to sometimes. I moved on to people I felt comfortable with, I became less cranky, more humble and kind, even excelled at my academics from my freshman year of high school and I would make that same choice a million times if I had to because everyone will not see your perspective.




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