AlwaysMarilynDean

To Be Honest With You
2017-05-02 04:37:49 (UTC)

Currently

Things are going so well... I kind of feel like I'm watching my life crumble right before me and no matter how hard I try to hold on more and more reasons come along for me to let go. I thought fate brought us back here to fix things not make them worse... so I'll get the worst news out of the way first I wont be graduating this semester and I've never felt like more of a failure I feel like I've worked very hard towards this and the end result is not finishing on time once again I know I'm not only disappointing myself but also my family and I tried to avoid that as much as possible. I think I need to take a break from the people here and just really focus on myself and school who I really want to be and where I really want to go. Besides school the only other problem is teddy... lately he's all I've been thinking about and wanting (besides graduating) I know guys should not be my focus but I keep imaging how different things would be if we were together even if we were friends maybe I wouldn't feel so alone maybe he would just bring the love I've been searching high and low for I know I should move on but I thought that the universe would for once work in my favor... I guess not do you think it's crazy that you can feel a really strong emotion with someone only for nothing to happen ?




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