All that is
I don't what it is. I can't do anything right now - i'm literally useless. I have three papers due next friday and an oral exam on top of that. And i'm useless. I don't know what else to do except write at this point. I feel like shit. Friday night I went to a private party for a new documentary that's just come out. I met a guy there, lee. jamaican guy - and usually i'd stay away from them. And even though I was sure I wasn't going to go home with him, the night took a different turn and ended up in the same bed. His friend forgot his keys in his car tho so lee had to go and rescue him. which cut our night short much to mine and his annoyance. We still fucked. and it was one of the best ones i've had. The passion was mutual, the attraction was mutual, even tho it was just a one night thing, i felt like there was something else there holding it together. It was so sexy - I couldn't bear it.