mamame

Its Just Me
2017-04-18 20:00:00 (UTC)

It's Been Almost a Year

How time flies. Until recently I thought we were moving on with our life. We made arrangements to meet with a financial advisor a couple of weeks ago. In preparation I was gathering information about our available funds for investment. When I opened the Chase account to print a statement I found that the $20,000 in the account was gone. I thought I must have forgotten what we used it for. So I asked Gary what did we pull the money out of this account for. He admitted right off that it was him. But said he still had it. Needless to say that started a whole new round of fights, argument or whatever you want to call it. I told him he needed to put it back if he still had it. After a couple of weeks and the money was still MIA I asked about it and told him I thought he was lying and that he didn't have it anymore. He said well part of it. "How much is part" I asked. He said "maybe half". That was the day before tax deadline. Tax day came and I told him he needed to go to the bank and use whatever was left to open an IRA. Needless to say when the end of the day came and I asked for his receipt for our records he told me yet another lie saying the bank was closed before he got there. What's so bad is that a part of me was still buying his shit. I guess I didn't want to believe my husband was that much of a liar. But the truth is that he is. In the big fight that followed he admitted it was all a lie, he didn't have any of the money. It was all gone. At one point in the argument I asked him if he had always been a liar or a problem with telling the truth. His exact words were "I think so". After 30 years.....How could I have been so deceived. I am so gulable. Where do I go from here? I want more that ever to just leave and go away. I hate this life. I never journaled about my daughter and what happened with her and her sister. I told Gary tonight that I don't have a single person in my life who treats me like they actually love me.




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