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2017-04-20 10:25:06 (UTC)

29th March... 8 weeks later, and we met

i met Him on the street near our hotel. i had gone too early, and didn't even know if He would turn up, as i couldn't phone Him, or email. We just had to hope that we could both make it.
i got out my car, and walked through the park next to it. The daffodils were in full bloom, and made a beautiful yellow blanket across the fresh green grass of spring. It was such a beautiful, sunny day, but my heart was in tears.
i paced up and down, across the road, through the other gates, and along the path that wound around the greenery. i had held back the tears well for the last 2 weeks, silently preparing myself for the end really :( i never said anything to Master, but my emails grew less and less, as His did, until we were down to just 2 per day from me, in a morning and at night, and 1 every other day maybe, from Him to me :(
It was agony, but in my mind, i was thinking He was doing it to prepare me for my release, when i wouldn't ever hear from Him again :'(

So when He said He may be able to meet me that day, that is what i had in my mind, and what i was expecting. He would tell me that we couldn't go on like this any longer, and that He had to let me go...

i rounded the corner, my thoughts collected, my heart calm, and ready, and then i saw His car, and i calmly walked up the path, and crossed the road. As i got nearer, my pace quickened, until i was almost running... my heart no longer calm, as it thudded in my chest, and my breathing came in short, sharp gasps, as i flung open the door, and fell into the car, my legs still hanging out, the car door wide open, and my bag dropped on the floor. i couldn't help it. He looked so handsome, and was wearing a suit, as He had a meeting that day. i just clung to Him, as He tried to shush me, holding me, stroking my hair, and planting light, feathery kisses all over me. God, it was so painful, and i'm crying as i write this, remembering how i felt :'(

Eventually, i came up for air, reluctantly releasing my grip on Him, and saying sorry, wiping tears and snot from my face. LOL. i must have looked a wreck, and the car door wasn't even shut yet!
Closing the door, i was told to get changed. Oh, so i was going to be used one last time? i was hoping i would be, of course, but inside also, was the tiniest of thoughts that He *wanted* me again, for that last time too.

The drive to the layby was short. From the time we arrived there, my memory is hazy :( All i can remember are the intense feelings i had, and some of His words. Words that all spoke about how it was ending :'(
i sucked His cock, and for a while, i felt at ease, despite the tears and snot. lol
And Master even joked about snot not being the best lube.
i was also fucked in my bottom, and i cried again, after Master withdrew without cumming, and i had to clean Him up with a wipe, before my mouth, because He was dirty :(
i don't recall Him using me any other way, but i think i came once when He fingered me to orgasm.
i know this is a bad summary, but it's been a month now, and as i said, i was more consumed by the distress i was feeling and the words He used :(

He said it was maybe best to leave it like this... instead of us growing tired of each other :( At least this way, we would separate on good terms, and not have the anguish of a bitter end :( And that it was better because at least none of us got sick, or died, or anything, thus leaving the other one alone :(
He also said that the sadness we felt that day, was the price we paid for yesterday's happiness... that's something He has said before, when we first got together, and He was telling me that nothing lasts forever, and eventually, it would end, in one way, or another :(
i just never expected it to end like this :'(

i couldn't think of anything, other than how empty my life would be without Him, and how i would never be able to remember Him without tears, and that i would never have what we have, ever again :(

And then He said i would find another Master!!! NO! No i wouldn't! Never... never ever! And that upset me a lot, because surely He knew i could never be anyone else's? And then, as i sobbed, and told Him not to say things like that, He told me that even if i did, i would still be His, in some way.
No again... i'll be His *in every way*... forever!

It was time to go, and more tears fell as we drove back the short distance to my car :(
As we pulled up, i couldn't look at Him... until He took a deep breath, and i held mine, as He spoke again...

"So, you know this isn't the end, don't you?"
i looked up at Him, my face a complete mess.
"you know we'll see each other again, even though it may not be as often as we would want, or as much time as we'd like?"

i flung my arms around Him, and smiled through my sobbing.
"You're sure? You promise?", i sobbed.
"I think we can manage *some* kind of contact, but it's going to be difficult for you, and you'll need to be very patient and understanding".

It was all i needed... to know that we *would* have something together :) i was even prepared to beg Him for online only if He tried to release me, although i probably wouldn't have straight away. i would have gone home, and let Him think about things, and i would think aswell, but i'm pretty sure i would have asked Him, because i already had before that point.
But now, He was giving me this hope... this tiny chink of light in a very dark tunnel, and my heart was leaping somersaults, as i drove past Him, waving and smiling, knowing i would see Him again... but not knowing when...




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