Courage! It is I. Don't be afraid
I woke up this morning very scared. I am scared mainly because of my finances. My biggest headache is my rent, my kid’s school fees and my issues with the Tax man. My plan for the school fees is to make the payments in June, July and Aug (this is if the schools agree to this and I have a job by then). For my rent I have no idea, I will need to borrow money from somewhere somehow. I have 2 issues with the tax man. I have tax debts (doesn’t look nice does it). The tax man wants to wind down my company; I cannot allow this to happen as I will probably not be able to seek employment in Investment Banking ever again. I will seek professional help on this matter today. Also I have back taxes I need to somehow find a way to avoid the tax my taking me to court. The finance issue are a burden on my heart. I woke up this morning and for the first time since I lost my job I was scared and I cried. My children were with me throughout the weekend so was very busy with them but the left last night (Sunday) and waking up to a quiet flat with nothing but joblessness and financial burden finally took its toll. I read a passage in the bible today – Mark 6:50 Jesus said “Courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid”
I have to be strong, I have to use this period to shed away all things that are not progressive in my life and take on garments of progress. I have examined myself and even though I am a structured person, i can see how I am not very thorough in many aspects of my life. I have highlighted all these and I am improving. I have to be on top of everything I do. I have to understand and obey all rules, I should not disdain and put no importance to all any aspect of my life. I need to be thorough.
This is a new chapter in my life, I was just a simple boy going about my business and the earth moves underneath me – My second son was diagnosed with Down’s Syndrome (he is a blessing to me), my marriage ended (as a result I have grown and become a more rounded person) and now this job loss and financial burden (right now looks very bleak, but I will courageous and not be afraid).