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2017-03-19 12:55:05 (UTC)

Third Straight Sunday With No Church

12:55 pm
Wow!! This has been the third straight Sunday where we have not gone to church. To be honest it feels really good and also feels really bad at the same time. At one side of it, I get to sleep in and also have more time to do my homework which I should have done Saturday night. The biggest bonus is that Mom makes us breakfast like today. We had biscuits, turkey bacon, turkey not on Sundays. I think there is something going on with my mom and Papa because I heard my mom and dad talking about how we do not do taxes at our church and how there is no way they can know if they paid their tithes if the IRS or something like that wanted to know. My mom also told me that I am not counting offering and documenting anymore so... Well it has been an easy Sunday with minimum work so I guess these Sundays without church are pretty fun. Don't tell God i said that though.
10:49 PM
After my previous entry I took a nap and then did some homework with little enthusiasm and no work effort but manage to get it done. About halfway through doing my homework I open Snapchat just to look at who sent me something (mainly because I turned off my notifications for Snapchat). I look at everyone's snaps and then I see a text from Mikaela. I open it to see that it has a picture that was on my story. Underneath the picture says " how come you don't talk to me anymore". I don't now why but I love how every time Mikaela and I don't text or talk to each other over about a week's span she says this, but at the same time I feel like she does this to everyone who she doesn't talk to from Bethany, well at least the people she likes. Anyway, I tell her why I don't talk to her without trying to her hurt feelings, which took a long time to. I basically just told her that it's hard to carry on a conversation with her because we don't see each other at all anymore. She asked me who I liked and surprisingly I didn't say "I don't know" or "nobody", but a simple " I still like you" I guess i feel I have grown my confidence and not afraid to share how I feel. Now what I do not know is if me liking her is reciprocated, but I don't really know because she called me a hottie, but didn't use any emojis so... Actually talked about some good stuff and lasted a long time. The funniest thing was when I told her that I posted a pic of Anna Desalvo saying she was a slut. she was actually believing and then she start to get all serious on me, but it was funny because I was saying some stuff that isn't like me and she was still going along with it for the longest. Haha, damn I love talking to Mikaela. It's so funny, but I better not write too much about that because I gonna start singing some Bryson Tiller. "this what happen when I think about you..."
One more thing that I forgot to enter in here was this week I had two very intimate dreams about Mik though. The first one, which I forgot what day it was, was this weird place that I can't really describe but it was creep and dark. I've forgotten a lot of it, but it was about how Mikaela approaching me with this like super sexy vibe. I was feeling her too. I looked in her eyes and i can't remember what she said but then she but both of her hands in mine and we start to walk and talk with each other. God why can't my dreams ever be that real. Anyway, the next dream was weird too because it was like in a chapel and i also can't remember what happened but all i remember was Mikaela having this purple dress on with a lot of embroidery and besets (ooh vocab word) and her eyes were so beautiful and they were like glistening a secret message to me or something. I don't what these two dreaams meant or if they had a significant meaning, but Mikaela was looking fine as hell in both. GOOOOODDDDDDD DAMN MIK!!!! Flawless!!! I wish that maybe one day Mik would give me another chance and show he that I've changed for the better because I really want her back.

I am not trying to be funny but having this online diary is super fun because no one knows about this except ME!!! The thought of that is just riveting you know!!!
Alright GN, bout to watch the last 4 episodes of How I Met Your Mother- hope it's good




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