✯Sincerely, Me✯
☯LivingWithMyself☯
Two-Way Street
Dear Reader,
Grandpa sat there talking shit about us. Saying we don't give a damn about the three dogs, and don't take care of them, even referring to me.
He was right about my brothers, but I do nearly everything for them.
So, I pointed out to him how he never once has taken them outside, fed them during the day or filled their water bowl, or bathed them.
And then he started doing that nervous laugh he does when he knows he's been called out on his bullshit.
And, when I turned back to my food, I noticed her burning holes in the side of my face.
I looked at her puzzled.
"Don't you ever talk to him like that again." She said.
E defended me saying that PAPA was the one in the wrong for talking shit about ME.
She said it didn't matter, that you should respect your elders.
I just stopped talking and sat back.
Defending myself is apparently disrespect.
E argued with them, defending me.
R defended them like the asshole he is.
She finally sarcastically apologized to me saying that it was fine for me to talk to them like shit.
And even after they degraded, belittled, disrespected me shamelessly.. I still got up, cleaned the table, folded the laundry, fed the dogs, and put away the dishes.
And she made sure to let me know while I did each task that "she was going to do it" and she just took out the dogs instead of calling me to do it like normal, as a way of rubbing it in my face that no matter what I do, she'll never admit that she actually appreciates it.
What's funny about this is that earlier today, she made a point as to talking shit about him for asking her to do his laundry.
What really bothers me about this is that she genuinely believes that there's nothing wrong with speaking to me like I'm complete shit.. treating me like complete shit like she always has.. is fine, but the second I stand up for myself, that's not.
And just to be clear.. I rarely ever stand up for myself.
E on the other hand? He has zero respect for them. He talks to them however he wants to, and faces no consequences. He can do whatever he pleases and gets away with it..
But she HAS to make sure she steps on me when I try to stand.
She HAS to make sure I know my place.
Tear me down, step on me, kick me.. insult me..
she's done it all no matter what I do for as long as I have been here.
It's funny how last week when I was so sick I couldn't choke down cereal, or stand up.. but I STILL had to do everything.
Funny how she talks shit about him all the damn time. Everything that I said, has come out of her mouth too. But that's perfectly fine.
Funny how she defended him saying he's sick, and unable to help out.. but when it comes to helping HER.. he's "not that sick"
The hypocrisy in this woman is sickening.
All I want to do is leave, but I don't have anywhere to go..
All I want to do is make them be sorry they took me for granted.
If I were to kill myself... they'd see then. I just want to die.
One day I'm going to leave and never come back.
Sincerely,
Worthless
By the way, anyone who reads this..
respect is a two-way street. You don't have to give respect if you don't get respect. Adults don't have any right to treat you like shit just because they're older than you. The whole "respect your elders" bullshit is outdated, and needs to go.
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