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Realities into my life
2017-03-01 03:59:08 (UTC)

A rut that comes and goes

For the past two days, I've been in a rut. This rut started on Sunday, 2/26, and it lasted until early in the morning on 2/28. I thought that this rut was gone for good but apparently, it came back. When I was at my college campus, I was reading the literary magazine for my college. I became jealous and filled with envy about someone else. One habit that I do is comparison: I guess if that is what you would call it. I compare (or contrast) my life to others and become sad when I realize they have it better than me. I guess I get caught up in the "illusion" that the individuals around me do not have any problems and are always happy all the time. I guess I fail to realize that everyone is going through, or has gone through problems. The habit of comparison can be defeating, if you let it. If you always compare or contrast your life to others, I think you'll never be happy. I think one of the ways to be happy is to stop comparing and contrasting.

But more on the rut, this rut seems to come and go. As soon as I came home, I decided to take a nap to escape my feelings of negativity. Yesterday felt like a very apathetic day. What I mean by apathy is a lack of interest or feeling about certain things. Apathy is when you feel indifferent. Nothing can make you feel happy or sad. Apathy is a feeling of "meh". I really don't know how to describe it. Hopefully, I feel better soon.




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