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2017-02-28 09:41:44 (UTC)

Is this what I get for that choices that I've made

I feel like such a fucking piece of shit.
I can't do life like everyone else has. Everything keeps coming crashing down on me. I've literally done nothing with my life. NOTHING. I fucking HATE when people try to tell me different LIKE I MAY HAVE DONE NOTHING WITH MY LIFE BUT I AM A PERSON WITH A BRAIN AND I KNOW WHEN SOMEONE IS JUST SPITTING BULLSHIT SO I FEEL BETTER. IT DOESN'T FUCKING WORK ON ME. I'm not stupid in that way but I am in pretty much every other way. I've wasted the last two years at a job i hate not working somewhere where I'd actually WANT to work my way up and maybe make a fucking decent living. I constantly waste my money on stupid shit I don't need. I'm always stressed. I can't remember the last time I wasn't stressed. There's always FUCKING SOMETHING WHY CAN'T THIS BULLSHIT JUST LEAVE ME ALONE I WANT TO FUCKING SCREAM. I hate this stupid fucking shit I hate it I hate it I hate it. I've been pulling my hair out ahahahah I am literally a fucking figure of speech.
Such a fucking joke such a stupid fucking joke I am.
I can honestly say I have no fucking idea what he sees in me.

"I've said it once, I've said it twice, I've said it a thousand fucking times; that I'm okay that I'm fine that it's all just in my mind"