Songbird System

Raven
2017-02-23 10:37:09 (UTC)

Still fucking bored

Now that's how you name a diary entry. XD Because nothing is really happening time to babble on about useless shit. :P And see how much I truly use faces.

Over the last couple of days, I literally finished three different anime series that's how bored I am. And, if you're wondering they were Bungou Stray Dogs (because Dazai looks like Gilbert from Pandora Hearts...don't you even try to deny that...and they're both hot :P), No.6 (1984 with a whole lot more yaoi ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°), and Snow White with the Red Hair (Snow White...just with red hair...and learning?...and love triangle-square-things...and actually interesting...BURN!). Yeah, I liked them. XD Especially Stray Dogs...because of my want of a complete Pandora Hearts anime I'll never get. It is the closest thing, okay? XD I need that damn anime. They're creating a fucking third season to Code Geass ten years later, they can make another Pandora Hearts anime and not cancel it this time. Hopefully. Please. The manga is amazing. :)

Yeah, there's nothing really to talk about. I've just been doing school and watching anime. My life is kinda boring now. Then again, my definition of boring is a whole lot more different than everybody else. I mean, I still have my damn voices...alters?...things in my head that truly nobody knows what the Hell they are...two years later. And every night I'm like fuck me because I still have troubles sleeping and have to resort to my diary to vent about every single one of my thoughts to make it even possible to get a couple hours. Isn't it great to be me? And I still have that light on...it really needs new batteries again though. If I don't change them, and I get another episode, then I'm fucked. So I'm gonna have to change them soon and hope tonight isn't an episode. Or I'm seriously fucked. Because I gotta give a speech tomorrow in English and I don't want to fuck it up. That would suck. Like all my effort would go down the drain because of one silly severe nightmare episode. Or maybe even sleep paralysis or walking. I haven't experienced any of those in awhile. Or, if I'm real unlucky, I could see things again. Nah, that hasn't happened in an even longer time. Seriously, though, if I see anything again, I would be like fuck sleep for the rest of my life, I'm turning all my lights on. Nope, nope, nope. A whole lot of nope. And even more nope. Charlotte, if you could do anything like that...you would've done that already. :P I can be a troll too you little piece of shit.

Okay, what else?HHHHHHHHHHHHMMMMMMMMMM. Everything is "normal". I guess because it is normal I can work on even getting farther along my own treatment...by myself. Holy fuck, I just realized that I forgot to take my meds days in a row...you know what, maybe that's why I feel horrible. Oh my God. I'm such an idiot. Baka. And there you've realized that I'm a real otaku. Hell, I think I've spent more of my life watching anime than sleeping. I wouldn't be shocked if I have. :/ Well, I can't even go get my meds because my dad is like nnnnnnoooooooo you can't have them with you, I must put it in a place where only I can reach. Oh my fucking God, dad, I'm not a fucking kid anymore. Get that idea around your fucking head. Okay, now I'm mad. I just made myself mad. Because teenagers have a good habit of doing that. Well, at least it is better than being bored. Now I gonna calm myself with some calming anime. Because, oh my God, I'm an otaku and there's no way out. XD




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