nerd™

the anger games
2017-02-22 17:13:58 (UTC)

Day 1

I slept next to mom last night.
I am holding on alright until I see her. I always start crying when I see her.
So many people come and go. We made food for them. Which is someone can't understand. I mean, WE. LOST. DAD. Why the hell are we supposed to act like hosts and make food and tea?!
Those people are people who came to tell us they are sorry for our loss not to give us a visit and hang out.
Like wtf I was so angry I couldn't breathe when we were cooking
My father is dead I want to set and cry I don't want to make food and tea
...
Mom called a guy dad told her about to come buy some of the gold from the shop. I think we r keeping the rest in the case for now.
Dad said we should keep it and only sell part of it if we need money.
We don't know where we will keep the gold yet. Dad said to keep it home but we are sacred to have this much gold at home. Someone may try to break in
Uncle W flew in last night. He suggested we buy a security cam at home but idk.
I am not scared of anyone breaking in. The gate is locked down and up stairs. We have bars on the window close to ground, the rest of the windows are too high no ladder can reach them
I think we will rent the shop after we figure out what to do with the gold
And the flats upstairs
...
Turns out there are complicated paper work because we are all under 21
Idk
Mom will call the lawyer tomorrow.
..
Everyone has a different opinion. They are all telling us not to worry about everything but I know this will last a month at most then they will forget about us.
I know we will start to relax after we know what to do about money.


It's gonna be okay.
I was so scared this morning. I felt like ty group beneath me disappeared.
But I am not scared anymore.
Dad told me "as long as I am alive, never fear anything."
But he also told mom "I left you enough to let you live well. "
I know dad would want me to smile and keep going.
He always smiled even when everything was a mess. He always smiled.
That's his legacy.
His smile and his ridiculously loud laugh.
I am not scared anymore. Right now I just miss him.
I can't believe he is not coming back

I love you dad.
I wish I had told you that I love you in the hospital..




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