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A Subs Space... OVER 18!
2017-02-17 06:21:20 (UTC)

i'm scared :'(

i have been writing in my private diary while i haven't been coming here. It was a release for me.
Talking of release...

This last few days have been a nightmare. i have almost lost my Master and Daddy :'(
Culminating yesterday, in a lot of emails from me to Him. Emails where i rambled, and rambled, and rambled some more. i have ruined the last week of His important training, and i feel so bad about it :(

i had no response to all my emails, but wasn't expecting any, as i knew He was busy. But i went out last night. i didn't want to, but i did. While i was there, i was checking my emails every 5 minutes, and i received one from Him at around 7.15pm. my heart leapt. i couldn't read it, and it was only a one-liner, but the relief i felt that He had emailed me was immense!
Then i got another, as i checked again when i wen to the loo. i was tempted to read it while i was in there, but i would have been missed. i'm glad i didn't read it now :(
i read it this morning, and read it again, and again, and again...

It is almost all *past tense* :'( i replied to Him, and just as i was about to log off, i got a reply to my music email i sent Him yesterday! (i was sat in my car in the supermarket car park, and turned the radio on... Bryan Adams, everything i do, i do it for you, came on). It was just what i didn't need to hear, but made everything become clear for me. i burst into tears, and knew i couldn't live without Him.

But now this email, and then His response to that music email from me... "I just want My little kitten back :("

Please God, let there be a way back for us?




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