Decelovember

My Keto Life
2017-02-06 02:35:22 (UTC)

Can I fast forward to where I'm financially stable and sleeping next to the love of my life?

So Alex and I broke up. I'm okay with it. He was not faithful and I wasn't his priority and I couldn't take it anymore. Bravest thing I ever did was walk away . I don't want a rebound or a hookup, id rathet be alone. But then I met Christian. We have so much in common, our beliefs, interests, a lot of stuff. We had a Starbucks date that lasted 3 and a half hours. He's so sweet. Other than being kind of shy, I had a good time with him. I wanted to kiss him as he walked me to my car but I thought that wasn't the right time or place. He kissed my forehead. I went home with 1,000 butterflies in my stomach. I guess he doesn't like me or I said or did something wrong because he hasn't really texted me since. I feel like its because i have kids. I'm kind of bummed. Like I said he's so sweet. That accent, those pants, his work, boots . but i could fall in love with him just from his personality alone. 😍 He wants to be celibate in a relationship and I could have respected that. It would not be easy. It would take me everything in my might not to be all over him. But he's worth it and I would have waited for him until he was ready. He's not a virgin BTW. I haven't been with anyone since me and Alex broke up and I dont really want to. Christian, even though he doesn't like me, he gave me hope. That
The kind of guy I want is out there. He makes me want to be a better person and I wish we could have been friends because I want to be a better person and Christian too. And I need more friends who are. Wondering when it will be my turn to get a good guy? Am I just not deserving of one? 😢




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